My "Images" (a term I stole from Suki) are short ideas, images, and sketches written for the amusement of and offered as tribute to my Liege and Lady. They were always longer and never so well crafted as Suki's short masterpieces, and over time, my Images files began to include various email excerpts and other works in progress or ideas for works and became more journal than art, so some juxtapositions may seem odd. Some of my Images follow. They are generally cruel and nonconsensual and of interest only to sickphuxs, so please read no further if such doesn't appeal to you. The Images are impurely the products of a warped imagination, and should not be seen as a reflection of the scene, nor should they be imitated by anyone not interested in a protracted term as the ward of the state. Steven S. Davis ----------------------------------------- "Forked Over" A very short image. I'm not having much time to develop anything very far, I'm afraid. But it does occur to me that things could be worse (way too melodramatic; sitting in an office review SOH levels and forecasts and making redistributions is not really so horrible). I could have been led, naked and hands tied behind me and with a ring gag in my mouth, to the middle of a cement floor with an O ring in it, and a rope tied around my scrotum and passed through the ring and then pulled to bring me to my knees, and then my ankles crossed and bound, and left on my knees till they were hurting badly, and then had a heretic's fork (http://shanmonster.lilsproutz.com/witch/torture/fork.html) applied to I couldn't move my head and then been surrounded by men who jerked off until they came in my face and hair and were replaced by other men who kept it up (so to speak) until my face and head were covered in come. With my Mistress showing no signs of interest whatsoever in the proceedings, nor any inclination when they were over to come get me or clean me up or even release me. Which would of course be the real horror of the situation, not what she let them do to me - she had, after all, bet a dollar on the carrying capacity of an African swallow and lost the bet, and had to either fork over the dollar or pay in trade - but that my ordeal wasn't amusing her. Now, if she'd kicked someone out of the way so she could kneel where she had a prime view of the action (and made enough appreciative noises that I knew she was there even when I was keeping my eyes closed because of all the jizz on my face), then it wouldn't be so awful. But her leaving the party and forgetting to come get me, even if an elaborate mindfuck - FWIW, coming back into the empty room muttering "I knew that I forgot something", and picking up the tin she brought the casserole in and walking out again, that would be overplaying the hand - would be too much to bear. -------------------------------------------- Domme's dilemma Home soon, to supper and then bed (and then sleep; perhaps after time to do some research (no time to write much) on the domme's dilemma: does she have more fun when her toy can stop the pain but won't (or can't; if she being just a wee bit sneaky when she tells him he can take the electrified clamps of his testicles any time he can't stand the pain any more, knowing that she's going to sadly pout whenever he moves to do so, and that no matter how much he may want to take them off, he won't be able to without not just her permission, which he has, but her approval, which she knows he desperately needs, and he'll never be able to take the clamps off unless she gives him an approving look; her pout will keep his hands paralyzed), or does she enjoy it more gloating over his utter powerlessness to anything except endure the tortures she has planned, as for example when she has him tied so nice and tight to the bench and first used the violet wand over him, which he can handle, and then puts pins all over him, which he can barely handle, but then when he's get a cock and scrotum full of pins and she brings back the violet wand to electrify them, she knows he can't stand that - just as she knows that he'll have no choice except to endure it. Less a sign of his love, but still, when she sees the terror in his already agonized eyes when she stops running her hands lightly over the tips of all those needles in him, and stands over him with the wand, terrorizing him while reveling in her power and in her continuing amazement that she can actually do something like this to such a strong man, well, if the Goddess made anything better she kept it for herself. That when she finally stops torturing him he'll be so immensely grateful to her for her mercy, and she'll be able to accept his efforts to express his gratitude to her for her having finally stopped doing what was giving her so much pleasure, well, that's just more amazement for her; she's in heaven and he goes through hell and when it's over he tries to reward her for her mercy. She's so glad that the submissive mind is so strange. Of course, no real dilemma for her, just a pesky choice which way to enjoy herself today, since whatever she doesn't does to him today she can do to him tomorrow. Well, maybe not tomorrow; the toy needs some recovery time from either game, and if that means that she's left with nothing but kissing and cuddling for a awhile, well, she can bear that. ---------------------------------------- Fear, or "Domme's Dilemma 2" But if she did wanted to play sooner, and gave him some longing looks and sad pouts, well, then... What choice would he have, when the thing he fears the most is that he might fail her or disappoint her ? Knowing that, she'd force herself to show some restraint in her demands - she knows he can't be trusted to protect himself when even the faint thought that maybe she's disappointed in him fills him with dread and overrides any other considerations, like whether his wounds are healed enough to play again. But, of course, she'd still exploit this feature of his sometimes; too delectable a one not to exploit, and too sweet a means of control. *She* doesn't need to exert herself with long canings to make him obey, she just has to practice her look of sadness. She might once have fantasized about carefully say "I'm so disappointed... in <X>" (X never being him of course, she would never be that cruel), but even that much taunting of his greatest fear (well, the greatest fear he'll admit; behind it is the fear that if she's disappointed in him, she'll leave him) she'd decided was too much. But those little pouts and sad looks, she didn't mind those, and they would instantly make him obey. A bigger dilemma for her, really, than which of two fun ways to play she prefers, would be the conflict her love for him and her desire that he be secure, and her enjoyment in his fear and in the power over him his fear gave her. Being the one person against whom he had no defenses, and the one person who could say the thing he most dreaded hearing, being able to destroy him in an instant with just a few words, this was a huge power and thrill and one she didn't want to diminish. And yet... she didn't want him so afraid, and sort of resented that he could be so afraid of her, and wanted somehow to build his confidence that she'd adore him no matter what while still keeping his terror of disappointing her. It'd be so nice if it were truly a selfless fear, if all he thought about was her. But she knew that his selfish interest, his fear of being abandoned, was a big part of it. Not all of it, she know he genuinely wanted her to be happy. But she also knew the the instant obedience to whatever she let it be known her desires were - if she didn't enjoy giving him orders she'd never need to - that she enjoyed so much had much of it's basis in that fear she somewhat resented and somewhat regretted he felt. Not that she caused it - she did try to make him secure in some ways, ways that suited them both, like her frequent statements that he was hers and that she would never ever allow him to escape her. But somewhere inside him was that fear. She hadn't caused it, it was within him before they ever met, and sometimes knowing the depth of it and what it did to him was heartbreaking to her. And yet... when he leapt up to get her what she wanted even when it meant the weights she'd hung from his balls would cause him serious pain, all because of a small pout when he'd tried to rise slowly and carefully, it was hard not to love that. And hard not to love him for knowing what she did and how she manipulated him and still loving her and forgiving her (they neither called it that - they scarcely ever spoke of it at all - but they both knew that his forgiveness was what made her able to enjoy being the bitch, she couldn't do what she did to him and not hate herself save for the fact that he loved her for it). So maybe he had her in as tight a trap as she had him. And neither of them minded; well, not very much, but what is ever perfect ? -------------------------- It's not easy being a sadistic dominant Some desires can be hard to reconcile with one's image of oneself as a good person. Wanting to hurt one's friends can take some getting used to. Thinking that you'd like to have someone come visit you so you can put him in a cage and make him sit all day waiting for you and then torture him all night - well, not all night; from time to time you'd stop to fuck your lover while your friend watches - yes, sometimes that does seem a little outside the behavioral norms of a nice person. But you're not an evil person for making your visitor spend his days sitting in chains inside a metal cage in your basement. Nor for rigging the cage with electric wiring, with four levers on your desk marked: make him tingle, make him moan, make him scream, and make him die. Nor for often using the first two so he knows that while you are busily working you are thinking about him. Nor for using number three once or twice. Not even for thinking about using number four, not even for thinking about it a lot; not even for telling him the next day, as you making him put his sore naked body, with so many welts and bruises and scratchs and punctures, back in that hard cramped cage, that you thought constantly about pulling that switch, just to give him something to think about. Now, rigging something that set off lights 60 seconds before the shocks were delivered, so he'd know when he was about to get zapped, and using 1-3 often enough for him to know that they work, and at the end of the day setting off the warning lights for number four, that might be just a bit evil. And setting up switch 3.5, the one that hurts a lot more than does # 3 but isn't lethal, and rigging the lights for 4 to go off when you push button 3.5, maybe that is, just a little. And if those lights say "Lethal Shock Ordered - 30 seconds to abort or lethal shock will be delivered in 60 seconds" and are accompanied by two digital 30 second countdowns, with one counting down as he watches in horror... well, maybe that might be evil. But enjoying thinking about it isn't. ----------------------------------- Some thoughts on words and phrases. "pay through the nose" A comment that caused some mental wanderings. Whether the following would be a case of me paying through the nose, or you paying me through the nose, isn't clear, and probably doesn't matter. The comment produced three images for me. One being putting a nose hook in my nostrils and leading me around and turning/raising my head in various ways. Another being an image, or series of images, of being rewarded with scent, from having a shoe saran-wrapped and taped (saran wrapped first so as to not risk damaging the shoe; my hair wouldn't necessarily rate the same protection) over my face, to a small bit of hair being clipped and taped under my nose, to a wet finger being wiped across my upper lip. Another one being of me tied to a chair and you swabbing a Q-tip in some hot sauce and applying the Q-tip to the inside of one of my nostrils, then sitting back happily while I buck and gasp, until finally, flushed and sweaty and teary and exhausted, I still there still (aside from gasping for air), at which point you get up and saunter towards me with another Q-tip, the jar of hot sauce, and a wicked grin. And after treating the other nostril and enjoying the show, sauntering up even more happily, and coating the Q-tip, and then taking my cock and pushing open my urethral slit, and moving the Q-tip towards it. ----------- Demasculinizing "Demasculinizing" might need some distinction from emasculating. Though I suppose it's only to people with a certain openness that there would be any difference; the men we're discussing would probably regard anything "unmanly" as being emasculating. I'm not sure what I'd regard as emasculating (aside from the most literal meaning). Certainly not having to serve or be deferential to women. Probably some sort of combination female supremacist brainwashing combined with forced chastity of a sort that made erections painful and from which there was no relief, where the goal was to eventually get me to where I wouldn't have erections any more, or perhaps to combine this treatment with conditioning that would only permit me to have erections under conditions my dominant specified. Since neither crossdressing nor humiliation is my thing, I'm not getting a real clear picture of how this might work, but the idea of making my erections too painful to bear save when I'm dressed in a way that my domme hoped I'd regard as demeaning so that eventually if I wanted release I'd have to accept degradation to do it (learning that I'm going to have a bloody cock if I get hard when not wearing a tutu, for example) is the broad outline. Most women I'd submit too would not, I think, like this. Though I can perhaps imagine them enjoying conditioning me so that I couldn't get an erection without a butt-plug in place. An interesting take on chastity belts, one where the belt (and the insert) was needed for the submale to break chastity. I'd think this would be very difficult to accomplish, and would probably require a great deal of denial and a lot of cock torture to get a man to that point, if it could be done at all. I suspect that some women wouldn't really mind terribly if they did spend a long time denying their sub release, torturing his cock whenever it became erect when he wasn't butt-plugged, and inserting plugs in his butt and trying to make him come, and the training still wasn't complete, so he had to be routinely strapped across the bench and teased into response then tortured until he went away, then plugged and teased until he came. Repeat this procedure very often (while taking available means to prevent him from masturbating) and he might in time become conditioned that the butt-plug means release is coming (so to speak) eventually, while the absence of the plug (and perhaps some words from the lady (with which on insertion his erections would still be punished)) any erections are going to result in serious pain. Seems that it might be possible to condition him eventually to have a convenient on/off switch for his sexuality, or at least his sexual performance, and that said switch would be entirely in her hands. And if lots and lots of CBT failed to produce the desired result, well, the process would still be fun. For her. ---------------------------------------------- "All's right in the world" My ponderings of late have revealed what may be an odd kink. An observation of the fact that so many of my fantasies are about things I do not want to have happen to me, and of the way they change as my correspondence changes, have finally revealed to me what my kink is (as a submissive bottom; as a sadist things are somewhat different). My kink is being in dominant women's fantasies. Don't know what the name of this kink is. I sorta like TPF (for Third Person Fantasies (me imagining her imagining someone who looks sorta like me but who's a lot better a bottom than I)) because I can say that they're a step beyond TPE. It might be the case that if I did this stuff more I might develop more kinks of my own, but for now it does appear that I am heavily into being an object of desire and that what most of my fantasies about things I'd not really enjoy are, are my fantasizing about my dominant fantasizing about me. An interesting question is how far I'd go to feed these fantasies in a situation when the person I'm currently imagining as my dominant were actually around to enact her fantasies (or the fantasies that I dreamed up and told her so she'd fantasize about me). Pretty far, I think (but then, this is "pretty far" as defined by a wimp), but certainly not as far as my fantasy characters do, since in my fantasies the woman's pleasurable reactions are very real but the pain is very distant, more observed then felt (a rather obvious thing which finally clicked when I realized what the fantasies are, not my imagining the event happening, but my imagining her imaginings (circular enough yet ? (reminds me of a interesting circular story, Borges's "The Circular Ruins"))). But how far, I really don't know. Recently I began pondering the idea that I'd like it if my dominant found it annoying when I was out and about. It wouldn't drive her nuts, she'd understand realities, but there was some part of her that only felt "all's right in the world" when she had me under her direct and immediate control, and liking bondage (which I don't; never did any self-bondage, and bondage per se doesn't do much for me) this meant when I was closely confined or strictly restrained (e.g. in a box under her bed (stealing from the "Perfect Victim" situation) with loose restraints (imagining that when I was in the box she'd be especially enthusiastic in her lovemaking (which I'd hope was pleasing to her SO, who was getting more and more enthusiast sex, rather than making him insecure or jealous). And then I got to imagining that this might be more right in her world the more strictly and tightly I was restrained. Anytime she had me in her house and wearing her restraints the nagging "something is out of balance in the universe" sense that would bother her any other time would be gone. But it was when I was tied down tight that the her world was really good. And as time went on she'd like me more strictly restrained and for longer and longer periods, so I came to be spending more time being mummified (head included, which with my slight claustrophobia I doubt I'd enjoy (and which in RL would be a problem because the encasement of my head would cut me off from the sight and sound of my Lady's enjoyment, which is so important to me (but in TPFs, of course, I can somehow observe/enjoy what my character couldn't see or know (as in the fantasies in which she locks me up, very cool and calm and mature, then gets on the phone with her girlfriends and like a giddy schoolgirl tells them who she has got in her dungeon (a silly fantasy, made even sillier by the obligatory part about them all being impressed and envious)). Being tightly and thoroughly mummified and then tied to a table wouldn't be fun for me, but knowing that I was making her happy and excited would be. But of course I can't stay so strictly restrained, a fact that would cast an interesting shape on this relationship, her happiness would have as a limiter the fact that as an ethical dominant she couldn't keep me this way for days on end. My enjoyment would have the more direct limit that as the bondage became more and more prolonged I'd become more and more uncomfortable and I'd want out. But I'd also feel guilty about wanting out knowing that she wanted me in. Doubtless reasonable people would come to some arrangement that maximized her happiness while also leaving me happy (as a sub I don't need my happiness maximized - I think it quite all right if the dominant seeks to increase her happiness at the expense of mine - but she has to leave me enough enjoyment that I can be happy or I won't indefinitely keep going along and when I stop she stops being happy (hey, it's my fantasy, remember ?). Even if it did mean longer and longer periods more and more strictly restrained, something could be worked out (well, remember, it's a fantasy about fantasies, so of course it can be). And even if it did mean me getting more and more desperate - but unable to do anything about it, not even communicate (well, there *are* the variations where she leaves certain parts accessible to use as may please her, but since she'd certainly know by then that the presence or absence of certain physical conditions is not a foolproof guide to my state), just hope more and more fervently that she'll soon decide it's been as long as I can bear, and that when she does let me out she'll be more proud of me and/or happy to see that I am well than she'll be saddened about having to bring disorder to the universe by releasing me again, so I'll be confronted by smiles and kisses and stroking, physical and emotional, when she undoes me, not by a sad dom. Just one who's counting the hours until all's right in the world again. And figuring what mutually satisfying uses can be made of the intervening time. ---- Some followup thoughts I certainly know that I don't want to be locked in a Skeffington's daughter and cramp up terribly while my domme tells me that she wants me to tell her how I'm feeling, and that when I get to hurting badly she'd going to gag me so I can't ask to be released, and that she's going to wait until my tears are flowing freely and then one hour after that she'll let me go - if she's done masturbating to my pain. It's not being badly cramped and in agony that appeals to me. It's the idea of her getting off on it so much (especially since I volunteered for it - but only after a certain fashion, when it became clear she was going to cry if I said "no" and if it had to be that one of us would cry I could bear it better if it were me (well, in fantasy, anyway; I hate hurting my dommes or prospective dommes - I have, I'm sad to say, several times (though only once, when I broke up with Nymph, in a way that I think I could have avoided; the other times I don't know what I could have done to not cause the pain) - but I don't know that I can honestly say that I'd rather be hurt myself than have my domme hurt) that appeals to me, and the idea that I'd so central to what she wants (a rather silly thought this weekend involved a woman stroking the Skeffington's daughter [1] and telling it "soon we'll have him"). [1] In some versions it was modified to allow a small amount of of flexing to relieve the terrible leg and neck and abdominal cramps it caused - but said flexing caused ball-crushing action. I suspect that if I were actually doing any bottoming my fantasies would become more realistic; it's never having really been in such terrible circumstances that allows me to enjoy the idea of them (as well as the focus being not on me, but on the feelings of the person observing me). That, and the idea that such supremely submissive choices is going to win me so much favor from my domme (but how much favor would I really get if I were cursing her out and demanding that she release me right this minute, as would probably happen with those more extreme choices. ------------------------------------------------- Acid I was playing with some thoughts of hypodermic fun earlier Motorcycle gangs in my area used to have a curious practice of trying to kill people with injections of battery acid (why I have no idea; it certainly would not be overlooked in an autopsy and it's much less reliable than simply shooting the victim (and much harder work unless the victim is unconscious or tightly bound)). I'm not sure of the details, but imagine that when, after some people dressed much better than real bikers ever dress drag a subject off the street for a train and then leave him or her tied up for "rush hour" ("that's when the trains come every half hour") and after rush hour someone takes a battery and draws fluid from it (obviously the victim has to know a little about this method of execution (and perhaps at least as little about batteries as I do)) and goes to inject the victim in the heart but since he or she will perhaps struggle a bit, maybe the fluid won't get into a vein, and if something could be found which creates a burning sensation w/o doing any real harm (solution of saline and alcohol, perhaps) it might make the whole situation seem real enough that when the victim is held down and an injection of pure saline goes in a vein, the subject might have a period of uncertainty about whether he or she should expect to die (per what I've read, the battery acid has to go to the heart to kill). Which some people might consider a fun experience (and, of course, others would find traumatizing, and some would consider just cause for killing everyone who had been involved in doing such a thing to them, so it would help to know the subject pretty well). --------------------------------------------------------- Noble Using BDSM to deal with the day's frustrations might not perhaps the most noble use of BDSM, but who says every usage has to be noble ? When I have more time I might better develop the idea of a man who's been engaged in so much wasted motion that the idea of just being tied up tight and told reassuringly by a cooing woman than he doesn't have to do anything at all now, in fact she's going to see to it he can't do a thing. And she then proceeds to describe her day, which included various situations in which she couldn't do anything. Well, she could, be she knew it was more prudent to do nothing and to allow various petty tyrants to strut and appear to have their way. And while she knew it didn't mean much there was still some part of hear that found having to sit and endure this galling, that resented the powerlessness she felt in such circumstances. And which was why she was especially going to enjoy being the tyrant ("no, dear, I'm not going to strut for you" (but maybe at some point she will strut a little within his view)) and having someone else totally powerless. Perhaps she'll put a gag in the man's mouth (a penis gag, perhaps "You know how I like seeing a cock in your mouth, dear, and when there aren't any organic ones around, this will do; while we're at it, perhaps you'd like a cock in your ass too ? No ? I didn't think so. But I'd like one in your ass, dear, and it's what I want that matters now. You just lay there dear, you won't have to do a thing, not even suck on it to lubricate it the way I'd usually make you, I'll lubricate it myself. Such wide eyes you have, grandpa; no, dear, not that way, some commercial lubricant will do you quite well") and then she'll take a lucite rod and begin flipping it against the securely bound and quite helpless man's shoulder blade, a light and easy motion, moving it up and down his shoulder blade for awhile, uncomfortable for him but not really painful. And then her strokes stop being spread along the length of his shoulder blade and start falling repeatedly on a dozen spots, and it starts getting very uncomfortable. And then on six of those spots, and it starts getting painful and he's trying to squirm away and protect his shoulder but he's too well tied and she'd too careful and continues happily hitting those six spots while taunting him about how he can't get away from her. And then on three of those spots and and it's really very painful and he's mmmphing through his gag and pleading with his eyes and struggling against the bonds but all quite futilely as she giggle at his useless efforts and tells him "there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop this, boy, no matter how much you may want it to stop. You are truly powerless, for you it's not a matter of deciding that you can't do anything, you really can't do anything at all and I can do whatever I want". And what she wants to do is to tap that rod against just two spots alternately while he squirms and whimpers, and then to hit just one spot again and again and again with metronomic precision so he can fully anticipate each gentle whack, gentle whacks that take so little effort or energy from her but each one of which is excruciating torment to him and which cause him to exert himself so hard - so much harder than he did anytime today when he thought he was working so hard - but he can't do a thing, he can't move that shoulder and he can't move his tormentor for all his pleading eyes and whimpers and clear if muffled pleadings and not even when the pleading in his eyes is covered by the tears coming from them, nothing he can do will stop that endless string of taps against his shoulderblade, that soft relentless tapping that becomes such unendurable torture but which he has no choice but to endure. Up until the time that she decides to stop it, and then hug and cuddle him. And then to start on his other shoulder blade. ----------------------------------------------------------------- Pun-ishments Let's... assume... that after a paragraph with many suppositions someone had made a remark about it being rather suppository. I wonder what punishments would be fair and appropriate for this punster ? Something pertinent to the offense. Many paper cuts to his penis might be fair[1], considering the offense, but it lacks appropriateness [1] Owwww. Definitely the "press legs together tight and turn sideways" sort of thought. Very much a "Please, ma'am, mercy, ma'am, please" sort of thing. Of course, I'd be hard pressed to come up with an answer if asked "And if a helpless woman were asking for mercy for her breasts would you want me to stop or would you enjoy seeing them cut ? Makes a difference whether you're inside the ropes or not, eh ?" I guess my best answer would be that even if I did have a woman helpless and bound with her legs firmly stirruped even I wouldn't cut her clit. Of course, a long beating is appropriate to almost any offense, and works better than many tortures at releasing tension (certainly much more likely to release tension than something stressful like trying to make many little cuts in a man's cock with sheets of paper) And probably releases more tension than making a special hot suppository (something very irritating under a thin wax covering) and inserting it and waiting for the wax to melt/wear away when you'll get to see your victim squirming and howling. Or if a punster's fingers did give offense, putting bamboo slivers under each fingernail and having him type out "I shall not make bad puns" as many times as seem required. Perhaps, if his whole hands be blamed for being so permissive to his fingers, the punishment might be preceded by many swift strokes across each of his palms with a ruler, and then by several sharp raps of the ruler across the knuckles of each hand. Or if he still wasn't contrite enough, pulling out (or popping off; I can't verify this, but per some posts some time ago, to remove toenails (I assume fingernails work somewhat similarly) you don't use pliers and yank, you put a screwdriver under and push (foot would seem a little easier, with the foot and ankle immobilized so you could push in more easily))) his fingernails and jabbing the soft tissue under each of them many times with lancets, and then taping a small bag half filled with hot pepper juice over the finger, immersing the sore and punctured quicks in the juice and giving them no escape once the hand was taped down firmly, leaving him no way to obtain relief except hope that his apology - apologies - were sufficient to win him mercy. ---- A response to commnets on "Pun-ishments" [snip comment om manicures] Well, no need for that, but if it wouldn't please you to be sitting soaking your nails while watching a man soaking his now nail-less fingers in pepper juice or a cinnamin oil solution (at least until he moans enough that you show him mercy), well then certainly you should not have to experience that. Domme's are supposed to suffer. I actually had been considering some comments about how I didn't expect that removing fingernails was something you'd do or even enjoy watching (so I wouldn't expect that you'd enjoy it if someday between happily torturing and sexually using your submissive you were offered the opportunity to observe me being tied to a chair and my hands fitted into wooden gloves that kept my fingers still while my fingernails were taken out, and while I certainly wouldn't be enjoying the experience I'd enjoy it even less if you were obviously distressed at it*), but I'm afraid I went with the "way more than we'd actually enjoy but conceptually intriguing" idea rather than with something you might actually enjoy. * - It's a rather nice fantasy actually, seeing a bunch of my femdom friends absolutely furious over the way I'd been tortured at some party, though again the reality would be complex and difficult because it would presumably mean they were angry at my domme and that would create serious mixed emotions for me. Hmmm, well, one scenario that would work is that my domme had loaned me to a friend who had done something quite excessive to me and my femdom friends were furious at them both and my domme quite enraged when she learned about what had happened (and was very solicitous of me and spent much time offering comfort (OK, so in reality I'd probaly be hurting too much to enjoy the comfort, the fantasy is still nice)). Not directly pertinent, but I remember one ASB or SSB article in which a woman was taken to a play-party by a femdom friend of her master and she was bent over a chair at the party and offered sexually as a party favor to a man she disliked. The femsub made enough of a display of *really* not liking what was happening that the party buzz persuaded the femdom to call it off, but when taking the femsub home she made a point of how she was going to report the sub's poor behavior to her master, and the femsub was pretty badly shaken up by the whole incident, including this report to her master, but he supported her. Arguably a slave should be able to be offered like that, but "should" doesn't have a whole lot to do with wiitwd, and if a particular person can't deal with that or can't deal with being publicly fucked by a man she'd never voluntarily let touch, then she can't deal with it and the master's view that a slave has a duty to protect his or her owner's property is the sophisticated slaveholder's view. --------------------------------- Penance Your attitude, boy, has been quite unacceptable of late. I'm certainly not having any boy in my service who doesn't realize how lucky he is to serve me. If you're at all resentful of my orders or my impositions or my uses of you, you're free to leave at any time. No, you don't want to leave ? Well, frankly, I'm not at all certain I want to keep you. You're sorry ? Just what I was thinking, actually, that you're a pretty sorry submale. Be *that* as it may be, it's a little late for you to be feeling sorry, you're obviously not sorry for the Mistress you've served so poorly, just sorry for yourself for the good thing you've so thoroughly messed up. Spare me your pathetic excuses for apologies. I am at least glad to see that you didn't attempt to excuse or, ghoddess forbid, justify yourself. You want to remain in my service ? Yes ? Even knowing that it's going to be a very long time before you again deserve any pleasures or honors from me - right now it's so hard for me to imagine there was ever a time I allowed you to kiss my foot, or to believe that such a time will ever come again. Well, we'll see. Words aren't going to cut it, you poor excuse for a boy. Strip now. No talking. No more words from you, you just do as you are told and you do it immediately and silently. Hands behind you. Handcuffs will do for you, I don't wish to touch you as much as ropes would require. Now follow me. You do at least sometimes have some interesting ideas, even if usually how to make women suffer - something you've proven much too good at in my case. If you thinks tears are going to to win you any sympathy you're quite mistaken, that the simple truth hurts is not any great credit to you. You might recognize this idea. The pole isn't lined with jagged metal, as I'm much kinder that you no matter how little you deserve my kindness. Just wrapped tightly with a very thorny vine. One full of pricks. Pricks for a prick - and I don't solely mean your cock. Now, straddle the pole, boy. Now, this hood over you head will do well enough since you don't rate feeling my fingers while being blindfolded. It's very simple, boy. You show me how much you want to keep serving me. You keep walking until you think you've suffered enough for me, with those sharp thorns and leaves pulling at your cock and balls. Stop whenever you think you've suffered enough. If it's sooner than I think you've suffered enough, then you obviously don't respect me enough and you haven't a place in my service. If you are still walking when I think you've done enough penance, well, then maybe I might consider retaining you. And if I see some real dedication to me, well, that might positively influence me. Maybe. Maybe I'll just know you realize how little chance you have of ever getting anything this good again and that you're desperate not to have to leave. We'll see. Now, start walking, boy. Either down the pole or out my door. And my life. What, boy, did you think that it wasn't going to hurt ? That I'd use some soft, nambly-pamply vines for your trial ? No way. This is going to hurt you, boy. If you want to stay, it's going to hurt you a lot. Now walk. It's OK to make some noise while you walk, just so long as none of those noises are you asking for mercy. I've been much too merciful to you already. No mercy for you now. Just keep those feet moving and keep that cock and those balls dragging through the bristles. Till you think you've suffered enough in penance for your offenses against me. Walking is accomplished by moving one foot and then the other, boy. If you're stopping, stop. If you're walking, walk. Well, good, you figured out what walking is. Now that's see how long you can do it. ---- A response to comments on "Penance". Some thoughts on "Penance" It ended up being more verbally abusive than I'd intended, partly because it needed some padding since I wasn't going to go into the detail of his walk (partly a matter of laziness, and partly a matter of style; I have come to admire, especially for erotic writing where individual preference matters so much, the idea I once heard of a Japanese painting of a flock of birds which showed an expanse of sky and the tail feathers of one bird, the viewer was to imagine the birds that just passed through that space, and the reader is to imagine his walk the way she wants to imagine it) and partly because he needed to be given strong motivation to do this, since it's going to hurt so very much. I forgot to include (or never thought of the best way to include it) that blindfolding him was done to keep him from knowing how far he'd walked or how much farther he had to go, so if he were only a few steps from the end and was hurting so badly and so much didn't want to go another step, he wouldn't know whether he was a step from the end or not. [snip comment about roses] I've sometimes imagined giving a woman roses, and telling her to undress, and then placing the roses all around her naked body and wraping her in rope to hold the roses (and thorns) against her bare skin. Then having various sorts of fun with her. Some variations include putting cloth over the roses, so I can make lay atop her without the thorns pressing me. Perhaps you'd enjoy doing that to him, or perhaps you'd enjoy the floral arrangement created by putting the roses between his bar legs and applying a crotch rope to keep them in place. Perhaps his cock there amidst the flowers would make for an interesting design.