Lezlie's Profile

profile updated 07/13/06

I'm 28 and live and teach high school in a Detroit, MI suburb. Although I think I've probably been a lesbian all my life, I really fought my feelings and acting on them all the way through college. This was for fear of my family's reaction and being ostracized by my friends. I was 23 before I had my first real experience with another woman. It was just about mind-blowing to me. She's a fellow teacher five years older than me but actively gay since her mid-teens. She's been a wonderful mentor and guide for me and we're still very close, but she'd like a monogamous long-term relationship, and I, feeling I've missed out on a lot of exciting times, still want to experience others.

I've been out to my family and close friends for the last three years and I have to say it's worked out better than I expected with them although there was some turmoil with my Dad and older sister. Turns out several of my friends already had an inkling and my mother and younger sister have been most supportive. I still fear being out to the school administration and guess that I'll still be putting up a straight front there for a while.

As to turn-ons, probably my biggest thing is that the other gal needs to be feminine, as I am. Butchy dykes are just a big turn-off to me. I kind of hate that they need to appear or act masculine. Still, I have to admit that one of my greatest desires is to use a strap-on and f--- my partner senseless! Haven't yet, but when the right gal comes along, I will. Like my girlfriend though, I have an aversion to vibrators and dildoes. They just seem too quick and too impersonal. I just love the cuddling, kissing, stroking and penetration of my partner and, especially, seeing her orgasm thanks to my loving.

I think because of these feelings I've been getting more and more turned on by the thought of seducing and lesbianizing 10-, 11- and 12-year-olds so they can early-on learn and share the joys I missed out on. I have to say that my first year out of college I did a lot of substitute-teaching in some middle schools (ages around 11-13) and found the innocence, naivete, and yet-just-budding sexuality of these still little girls almost breath-taking. At the time, though, I was still trying to out myself, to myself, so these were just more thoughts I pushed to the back of my mind. I must add that, thanks, especially to Lesbian Lolita and other writers that I have stumbled upon on the net such as Ginny Walker, Jan Vincent, Roxanne Appleby, Holly Rennick and some on Nifty.org, I think I'm going to work on placing myself in activities and organizations where I can more actively "influence" these young ladies. Still, it's so scary that society looks on girl-woman love so negatively. It seems so beautiful to me.