Sapphic Dreams, Chapter Three

by Adam Bookbinder

As Katie wrote her first few words on Sapphic Dreams she was filled with that same euphoric feeling she had had earlier when she realised that it was up to her to find a way to get past the sticking point in her dream where Psyche stood before her on the beach. She had to know that she could use free will to change the course of her dream and for the first time she had conciously done something to make the dream change before it ended. She had swum in a different direction, parallel to the beach rather than straight to it, and as a result of that one small change she had met the wise old man who had told her that only by focussing her desire on the little girl, and not Psyche, could she remain in this world of Eresos and not be pulled from it. Although Psyche was an attractive and desirable woman she had to remember that she was in Eresos purely because of her lust for little girls. To be invited to Eresos was clearly an honour and to have the love of adult women in your heart from the moment you first arrived bounced you straight back out of the place like a computer virus hitting a firewall.

Katie realised that Eresos was clearly a mystical realm about which she had a million questions. She also realised that it was pointless asking them because none would be answered until the time was right. Getting to Eresos was clearly about learning things and she had to learn them in the right order. Her first lessons had been that she could be concious in Eresos and use her five senses. She also had to have a yearning for little girls that was strong in her heart. If she tried to disguise it as she had learned to do in this world then Eresos would boot her out.

As the days passed Katie pondered the question of what it was she had to know about herself that would get her back to Eresos at the next full moon. The dreams had stopped and even when she tried they didn't come. It was as if the gates to Eresos were firmly closed, the hinges locked, and a fear began to grow in her that she might never get back. How cruel would that be? To be so close to Pixie for a few brief moments and then never to see her again would be cruel beyond words and she was sure she would return to Eresos at the next full moon as the wise man had said.

Every day she added a little more to her Sapphic Dream's blog. She described how she was feeling, her excitement at having found Eresos and Pixie and the Sapphic Dreams web site, and she wrote paragraphs and paragraphs about her true feelings for little girls. She described how, before finding Sapphic Dreams, she had been so repressed in her feelings about little girls that she had even censored her own fantasies. When she had been unable to hold back she had forced herself, in her fantasies, to imagine the girls were 13, 14 and even 15 in an attempt to keep herself away from thinking about girls even younger than that. And even with these young teen girls her fantasies were often only romantic kissing fantasies, there was rarely hardcore sex.

Since finding Sapphic Dreams and Eresos and Pixie she had changed. Now she could be honest with herself about herself and she realised how important that was. In this world where sex with the young was forbidden, the youngest partner she could have would be a 16 year old, but her mind was now free to dream of any age she liked. And she had learned how that in itself was a freedom, for it was this process of freeing the barriers within her mind that had transported her to Eresos in the first place!

She spent hours every day writing about little girls under the age of 12 and how she desired them. One day in the supermarket she had even been captivated by a little fairy who couldn't have been more than five! How she was progressing! And now, rather than feeling terrible guilt for having sexual and romantic feelings about such a young girl, she actually felt good about it and she was enjoying putting into words how she imagined fingering and sucking and licking that five-year-old's tight little cunt. She dreamed about having her naked in bed and sitting astride her with her sex pressed firmly against the child's tummy. Then she held her and rocked her hips back and forth, rubbing herself against the girl, her wetness making her smooth skin glisten. When she came she shouted out loud about what she was doing and how much she was enjoying doing it, for she was in Eresos and if others overheard she knew that her words would bring smiles to their faces.

Katie felt that writing on Sapphic Dreams was cathartic and the more she wrote the better she felt. She wrote about Pixie and what she was going to do with her when she returned, chose her, and all the ceremonial stuff was over. Pixie, she wrote, I'm going to eat you alive, so don't think about getting much sleep that first night we're together. Get plenty of sleep before I return!

After several days of writing Katie decided to read everything she had written and as she did so that same feeling of euphoria swept over her. Reading her own words about how she felt before and after finding the Sapphic Dreams story site made her feel so emotional that her eyes filled with tears. She realised what a repressed existance she had led before and she filled with joy as she realised that now, because of Sapphic Dreams and Eresos and Pixie, she had freedom of the mind. She realised that the repression she had suffered before was not self inflicted but was imposed on her from an early age by an evil force that was sucking all the pleasure out of the world. How cruel and sick and twisted they were she had thought. She cried as she realised the enormity of what she had discovered. Not only had she learned to know her true self but she could now see the world for what it really was. Her eyes were open and she could see clearly now. She no longer had any reason to feel guilty about her feelings and she realised that Pixie's words at the end of her last visit had been so very subtle. She had offered her little body and through admitting to herself that she desired it, Katie would find the freedom of her own mind. This was what she had to learn before she would be readmitted to Eresos. This Eresos on this other-worldly Lesbos was her spiritual home!

Tears rolled down Katie's cheeks as the sun rose slowly in the east. It was the dawning of a new era in her life and she knew now that she was definately going back to Eresos! Her hands trembled as she imagined being alone with Pixie and she filled with euphoria again, as if someone was pouring honey into her, as she imagined their first kiss.