| A Little Rain Must Fall - Part 3 We are invigorated after our session at the spa. Karen turns to me and asks: "Do you like Coffee Jane?" "Yes, I get free coffee for breakfast at a hardware store and put a lot of cream and sugar in it" I confess. "Well I'll get you a Latte" She offers "It is an upscale version" We have our Lattes at a table by the window. There are ducks swimming in the pond near the Starbucks end cap unit overlooking the park. The rain doesn't seem to bother them...'just rolls off their backs (I chuckle to myself) It may be a dreary day; but I am beaming inside. It is as if Karen an I are on a real date. We finish out our jaunt at Nordstrom. Karen is lavishing me with clothes and accessories. I am beginning to believe by the panties and nighties she picks out for us both that she has plans for me. And I play the part -- asking her to step in the dressing room while I am naked and slip on some see thru panties and a camisole. She is visibly shaken I can tell. She knows now that I know. And that means she is sure she can have me... "My God you are just lovely Jane" is all she can say... In the car now we have just enough time to get to the girl's school to pick them up. It is 4:45 p.m. and we buckle our seat belts. Karen turns on her stereo. She cues up. Tracy Thorn's Vocals from Massive Attack's 'Protection' I just love her voice. And the words take on a new meaning: This girl I know needs some shelter She don't believe anyone can help her She's doing so much harm Doing so much damage But you don't want to get involved You tell her she can manage And you can't change the way she feels But you could put your arms around her I stand in front of you I'll take the force of the blow, protection ... But you know you can lean on me And I don't have no fear I'll take on any man here Who says that's not the way it should be... I am just swimming with joy -- to be in this safe cocoon that is spinning all around me... We have waited in the cue at Montessori School and the two sisters are running toward the SUV. Karen gets out and hugs them both 'lifting Polly up in the air. Their uniforms look neatly pressed after a long day. Money can't buy everything. But it sure can rent some comfort... "Girls, say hello to Jane" "She is going to be visiting with us" "Hi!" Both girls chirp in unison "I am so glad to meet you both" I tell them. On the way home we all sing " There was an old man Named Michael Finnegan He had whiskers On his chin-ne-gan The wind blew them off And blew them on again Poor old Michael Finnegan, Begin Again" As hokey as that may have seemed to me before today; I was almost feeling like family. I pretended to look out the window as tears streamed down my cheeks. Soon we are pulling up to the security gate at the French Manor where the Hollister clan abide. I feel like a princess in a fairy tale. And I don't feel like I must 'earn' this. Karen is like no horny man in my eyes. She has shown me kindness and generosity...and an openness that I will cherish as long as she will have me. Margaret feeds the children an earlier dinner and helps them with their studies. By 8:00 they have watched 'The Princess Diaries 2 and are expected to be tucked in for the night. Karen kisses them goodnight and Margaret retires to her adjoining suite across an enclosed catwalk to her live in quarters over a private detached garage. "Are you comfortable Jane?" She asks at the end of our glorious day. "Oh yes Karen...I have not felt so safe since my parents died." "You have renewed my faith in humanity" I hope that I have shown her that I am no hood rat or thieving scoundrel. I do indeed convey a sense of confidence and intellect. My grades were at the top of my class before I ran away. "There is a guest room down the hall with an en suite bath waiting for you." "Please Karen"...I ask with trepidation...May I sleep with you tonight?" "Please" "Oh Jane...I would feel so presumptuous and forward to be so tempted by your youth and beauty -- not to mention your circumstances. Do you really feel comfortable with me as a friend and an equal -- not as a maternal figure? My God I am more than twice your age" "Age means nothing to me - I have seen more than most girls my age will ever encounter I have turned down every dollar handed me by some randy pervert that wanted to fuck me and turn me back out. Karen I just really want to sleep with you tonight. I don't feel like you expect sex from me...But at some point I know I want you. And I know you want me"... "Oh God Jane - I am ready to risk my career to make love to you" "But that is not equal to the risk you take in me being less than you expect underneath" Yes - yes I want you But we will have to not cross any lines yet -- not tonight. You can sleep in my bed - and I will hold you and share love and tenderness with you. Time will tell if it is meant to be"... |