| Awakening, Part One Lauren was like most of her friends up until she was about 9 1/2. Part of today's world they were already knowledgeable about the birds and the bees, with school helping in that respect. But it was academic and something to giggle about. They giggled about anything sexual, about coitus, certainly over pictures of penises, whether drawn or somehow photographs obtained through who knows what means, shown mostly as flaccid but sometimes erect. The more "advanced" among them decided to "practice kissing" so when they kissed a boy one day they would do it right. Many were all tongue of course. Lauren was already different in these things. She was curious about penises but more so about how other girls looked compared to herself, including in how they looked inside their panty which she was proud to say she knew was her vulva and NOT her vagina. As far as kissing went, she did participate but was a bit quieter in her kissing and found she liked kissing her friends and holding them and did not think about boys. And when she came up for help at her math teacher's desk she took note of the usual open top button of her blouse and tried to spy the top of her brassiere. Most noticeable for Lauren was when she would be talking with a friend and find herself forgetting what her friend said because she was watching her friend's mouth. Again more worldly maybe than girls of past times Lauren knew what "lesbian" meant and thought she might be lesbian. She wasn't sure if such a thing might go away but for now she knew she liked girls, women. So at sleep overs she liked all the girls would change in the bathroom, not wanting to be seen by the others, something not uncommon among females of all ages. So she was not able easily to glimpse a panty but did note otherwise the other girls and was in a way happy that all of them had bodies that were sticks, quite like her own. She felt she hid well her feelings when the girls would spin the bottle for practice kissing en masse and enjoyed the different feel and way each girl kissed. Her feelings became stronger until now at 10 she very much experienced sexual longings for her friends and her math teacher and even some friends' mothers. She began looking at herself in the full length mirror in her room, looking for outward signs of her inner feedings but seeing only the same stick-like body. She would take off her panty and examine the shape of her vulva, wondering was it maybe too much, too protruding, unsure with nothing really to compare to. Since only her doctor saw her naked she might have asked her about it but she was embarrassed to do so and wondered if it would make her weird and lead to he mother being told. Lauren's mother, June, was unaware of Lauren's precocious sexuality. She certainly knew the time for "the talk" would come but Lauren being only 9 1/2 and now 10 it did not dawn on her that her little girl was inside not so little. |