| Poisened Kisses 2: Conclusion This is the conclusion to to the story of Cally. This part is not much in the way in "stroke" value, but it ties thing off. Cally lay in her hospital bed with all the activity of corpse. She paid no attention to the nurses and doctors that fussed over her. She only reacted with limp submission when they would check on her casts and things. The only person that she ever spoke to was Stacy and even then in only dead terse sentences. After a week of this she saw they had put a camera in the room that pointed at her bed. She'd overheard one of the nurses talking and found out that they'd put her on a suicide watch. She didn't care about it though; she didn't feel like caring about anything. She'd seen a light in the dark tunnel of her life, but it had only led her astray and into a torturous pit, very lonely and tiring pit. She knew Toni had come every day during visiting hours, but she'd commanded the nurses on the very first day to never let her in the room. Stacy occasionally tried to convince her to let the girl in, but she never responded to those requests. After that first week she also stopped crying. It was as if her body had run out of them somehow. As if her body had used up it's quota of tears for the month. She remembered that that was when they'd installed the camera. When her heart had given out and numbness filled her. Now she was yet again regretting even waking for the day. She hated her body for betraying her wish to stay in asleep forever. Only in sleep was she at peace. There she felt she could let her soul be free of pain and torment. "Cally...honey?" Cally turned her head woodenly at Stacy who was sitting next to her. She hadn't even noticed when the woman had entered the room. "Cally, I talked to your mother, she'll be here tomorrow." Cally wondered if this news was supposed to cheer her up. It wouldn't matter if her mother was here or not. Nothing could change the fate she'd been dealt. She accepted that now. "Cally," Stacy went on. "Please, will you please speak to me? Will you at least eat something?" Cally had stopped caring about eating too, she'd forgotten about that somehow. When the hospital had put in the camera's they'd also put IV nutrient tubes into her arms. She hadn't even flinched when the needles went in. Cally watched as Stacy stood and walked over to the door. She spoke with someone just outside the room in an urgent sounding voice. Cally let it all just slide through her, it didn't matter to her who Stacy was talking to. At least at first she thought that way, until Stacy led a second person into the room. When Cally saw Toni enter the doorway she sat bolt upright in the bed. She felt her mouth shape into a snarl before she let out an unholy shriek, "Get OOUUT!" "Cally, please calm down," Stacy said worriedly at her sudden and violent reaction after a week of dead nothingness. "She insists on seeing you. She's worried about you. Isn't she your friend?" "NOOO!" Cally again shrieked out. She heard an alarm bleep from a machine somewhere nearby but she didn't care. She reached out unthinkingly and dragged the IV stand. With all the hate she could muster she hurled the thing at Toni who only stared in horror at the sight she was seeing. As soon as she threw the rack, pain ripped up Cally's arm as the needles ripped out and her recently set arm re-broke from the strain of the violent action. Cally collapsed and cried onto the bed. "Get out," she said, this time with no emotion whatsoever. She barely saw Stacy hurriedly shuffling Toni out of the room. She didn't notice at all that one of the flailing IV needles had slashed a small cut into Toni's cheek either. If she had, she would have felt a very small sense of satisfaction. Unfortunately her re-broken arm held all of her attention. This time a different more insistent alarm sounded. Soon Cally heard a large number of people entering the room shouting thing and then felt hands upon her. She let the hands take her unresistingly. Then she felt a pinprick that sent her into blissful blackness.
When Cally woke again there were two faces looking worriedly at her own. Through the fog of pain killers, she recognized her mother next to Stacy. She saw the tears in her mother's eyes end felt a deep sorrow in her chest. She was only being a burden on her mother; she didn't want her here either. "Cally, I'm here now Cally," Mom said with sorrow filled words. Cally felt her mom take her hand that wasn't in a cast and hold in tight only in her own. Cally wished she'd just let go. She didn't deserve pity or worry. "I though you said she was just hit by a car?" she heard Mom ask Stacy. "What's happened to her?" "I don't know," Stacy said in an equally sad voice. "She seemed pretty dead and depressed when she first started living with me. Her principal even called me when she was found crying in the school showers." Cally wished she'd stop talking and not remind her of all the terrible things her life had shoved onto her. She closed her eyes, but the voices still carried through her ears. "Then she seemed to perk up a little," Stacy continued. "I'd hoped something good had happened and that she'd at least let me be a friend to her. She seemed to cheer up so I thought that maybe things were improving at school for her." "Then what happened?" Mom asked. "I don't know," Stacy said in a pleading tone. "She called and said she was going over to a friend's place after school. I was happy that she had even made a friend so I let her go. Then her friend called me from the ambulance. She said Cally ran out from her house crying and ran right in front of a car." "The girl didn't say anything about what happened?" Mom asked with rising anger. "No," Stacy answered. "I've asked her multiple times, but she just starts crying and mumbles that it's her fault. She's been here every single day, all day long, trying to see Cally. When I snuck the girl in here Cally flipped out." "I heard about that from the doctor," Mom said darkly, "I want to talk to this girl." Cally wanted to turn away and bury her head. She didn't want her mom to know about her betrayal by Toni. She didn't want her shame spread around. When she tried to move she found she was strapped down to the bed now. Her struggling movements drew mom's and Stacy's attention. "Cally stop that!" Mom said in shock. "You're just going to hurt yourself again!" She felt two sets of hand hold her shoulders down so she reopened her eyes to glare at the two women. All she managed was a weak grimace. "Cally, please calm down." She felt her mom cup the side of her face. The comforting warmth made her involuntarily relax and stop trying to wriggle free. "That's much better now, see?" Mom said gently. Her hand began stroking Cally's hair gently near her forehead. Under her mom's soft hands, she felt another dam within her break. Cally began crying again in huge wracking sobs. She let out all of her depression and loneliness in one moment. She felt her mom climb onto the bed and hold her, but that just made her cry harder. She buried her face in her mom's shoulder and neck and cried for what felt like hours. She didn't understand why she was crying so hard during some points, but she knew she had to let it all out. It felt as if all her dead emotions for the last week or so had just been a cap containing everything she'd been suppressing and for some reason her mother's touch had been like a key to let it all go. Cally cried and fell asleep in her mom's arm. And then cried again when she woke. She cried for the entire day. When she as finally exhausted Cally felt strung out and dead again. It was as if she had expelled everything inside her to be left with nothing at all. "This isn't good," she heard a doctor saying to her mother and Stacy. "After all that crying I'd hoped your daughter would come out of her depression, but this dead starring into space is a bad sign." "I know that!" her mom snapped in frustration. "I'm a doctor myself, I know the danger signs. Isn't there something that can be done to snap her out of this?" "We're working on it," the doctor tried to assure, "but Cally hasn't eaten in three days and has only had IV nutrients, we're going to have to put a feeding tube in her if she doesn't start eating on her own." "I know that too," Mom said wearily. After that Cally didn't really hear anything. She was left alone in her room for a while and she appreciated the dead silence that prevailed. It was then that she heard her door open. She didn't care who it was, but she wished they'd leave her alone again. The lone person walked over to her side, but Cally stared upward and ignored the person. Cally felt a hand on her shoulder. It was much smaller than any of the people that had touched her so far and it shook her shoulder in an attention demanding manner. Wanting to be alone, Cally closed her eyes to try and convince the person to leave. Instead she felt the person climb onto the bed and straddle her still strapped down body. Cally felt confused in her numbness, there was no need for a nurse to climb on top of her like this, and the person felt really small too. Then to her absolute shock, she was smacked across the face. In jolted surprise Cally opened her eyes again and saw the person on top of her as her cheek stung hotly. Sitting on her thighs was a very young girl with a tan complexion, dark hair and a face that seemed very familiar. The girl's eyes and face were filled with anger, frustration and sadness. "I can't believe I thought you were pretty!" The girl said in voice tinged heavily with strained anger. "But look at you!" "Who are you?" Cally asked in disbelief. "This girl thought I was pretty?" she thought to herself silently. Cally saw her own confusion suddenly mirror on the girl's face. "You don't recognize me then?" The girl asked. "Not at all?" Cally concentrated harder than she had in a week on the girl and her appearance. She touched on that sense of familiarity and tried to feel it out. Suddenly the image of a girl on her knees between Toni's legs flashed in her mind, the recollection made her whole body twitch in shock. "So you know who I am now?" The girl said with an arched eyebrow. Cally didn't answer verbally. But she tried to wriggle in her restraints and throw the girl off her body. Just the thought of this girl touching her made her want to vomit. Again the girl slapped her, much harder this time. "Stop that!" the girl shouted. "It's annoying and I need to talk to you. If you break your arm again the nurses will come and interrupt us." "I don't want to talk to you," Cally said as she gave up her struggling. "To bad then," the girl said as she reached and tugged on a restraint strap. "You have to stay here and listen, and you can't run away." Cally couldn't believe a young girl of nine or ten could talk so seriously like this. She didn't want to admit that the girl was right, but she was. Cally knew she couldn't go anywhere and it wasn't possible to knock herself unconscious like she wanted to do. Cally saw a look of disgruntled satisfaction settled onto the girl's face. Cally thought she must have seen her resignation. "Now you listen to me," the girl said in all seriousness. "I want you to stop hurting my sister." Cally felt anger bubble up within her like nothing she had ever felt before. "Hurt her!" Cally shrieked. "Hurt her! What about me! What about what she did to me!?" In response the girl looked at her in a reluctant and apologetic manner. "It wasn't her fault," the girl said in a quiet voice. "It wasn't her fault at all. It was all me. It's me you should be angry with." "I am angry at you!" Cally said in a hoarse manner from her yelling. "I hate you and your sister both." "Please don't say that," the girl said now in a pleading voice. "Please don't hate Toni, she didn't do anything wrong." "Then what were you two doing right in front of me? How was that not something wrong?" Cally said in a voice that now dripped with acid and fury she didn't know she'd possessed. "I gave my last hope to her. My last hope at some kind of happiness in my life, and you two shredded it. I have nothing again now." The girl looked as if Cally had just slapped her this time. "How can you say you have nothing?" the girl asked in teary disbelief. "You have a mom and that woman who care about you. You're also incredibly beautiful. What more do you want?" Cally felt the unfairness of her statement. It was true that her mom and Stacy did care about her. But she also felt that it was only a small blessing. Her mom and Stacy were both busy with their careers. They didn't have the time or need to pander to a teenager like herself just because she didn't have any friends or because everything she did ended up going badly. "You can stop lying about how I look," Cally said tiredly. "I know how I look. People don't really look at me like that. Even your sister was just saying that to get what she wanted." "Toni would never do that!" The girl said in outrage, "and especially not about you!" "She already did!" Cally countered. "I just passed out before she could get it so she got it from you instead." "Toni's not like that," the girl cried in full tears now, her strong front completely broken. "That was all me. I did that, not her. I'm the one who hurt you. I did it on purpose." "What do you mean?" Cally asked watched the girl cry unremorsefully. "I thought you were going to steal her away from me," the girl said as she rubbed at her face. "Every day she came home and would only talk about you to me. She was mine first. We only had each other since our parents don't really care about us. They only pay attention when they feel like it. They never show us any kind of love or affection; to them we're more like housemates who don't pay rent." "And Toni," the girl continued. "She didn't want anyone to know she liked girls. Especially not at school since she didn't have a lot of friends before. So she didn't have anyone but me who actually loved her and wanted her, no one else but me." Cally felt a tremor of sympathetic pain in her heart as she heard a similar story of loneliness that closely mirrored hers; it filled her with a sense of dread for what was to come. "It was just me and Toni," the girl went on. "I loved her and she loved me. I was the one who begged her to have sex with me a year ago. I was the one who wanted it. I wanted it to please her, to make her happy. And she was happy. We were so happy together even though I know it's wrong, and I didn't care because she was mine." Cally could feel the tension rise in the girl as she still sat on her thighs still. "Then you showed up at school," the girl said in a despairing tone. "All she wanted to talk about was the beautiful girl she'd found at school. I saw how much she wanted you even on the first day she met you." "After that she couldn't touch me like she did before. She would only hug me like a normal, proper sister and tell me that she had found someone special. I had thought I was her someone special, but it was you who filled her thoughts, not me. I hated you right away for that. I hated the girl who had stolen my sister away from me." "But I..."Cally trailed of as she felt surprise. She felt a tear roll down her cheek as she heard the girl's pain and anguish. "I know you didn't know about me," the girl smiled wearily. "But I didn't care. You were the monster who had taken away the person I love. I couldn't forgive you for that. And then that day happened." "The day I came over," Cally said as she read the path of the tale. "Yes," the girl said with a nod. "I saw you lying there on her bed were I usually was, and I saw that you really were beautiful like my sister had said. I saw the way she was looking at you as she slept, like she'd been given a gift from heaven. It broke me inside to see it on her face when it wasn't directed at me. So I did something about it." "What did you do?" Cally asked in the pause provided. "Toni was sitting in her computer chair rubbing herself and I knew she was waiting for you to wake back up so she could be with you again. But I've been with her countless times and I knew she wouldn't be able to tell me no if I started on her So before she could say anything, I knelt between her legs and licked her for all I was worth. It worked like I wanted too. She was too caught up in what I was doing to say or do anything, she's a bit weak like that and I took advantage of it. I wanted her to only desire me, and not you. I wanted her to forget about you." "But then I did wake up." Cally said. She wasn't sure how she felt now. She felt remorse for kind of stealing Toni away unknowingly from her sister, but she also felt bad for what the girl had done about it. "Yes, you woke up," the girl said sadly. "At first I thought it was the best thing that could have happened. You got angry and ran off. I hoped then that you would hate Toni and leave her alone forever so I could have her back. But then you got hit by that car. All because of what I did, you got so seriously hurt. When you got hit, my sister completely freaked out." "I heard her," Cally said numbly. "She called for an ambulance and had to nearly threaten the paramedic to ride to the hospital with you. She blamed herself entirely for what happened to you. The hospital had to restrain her and drug her to settle her down. Since then, she's only sat in the waiting room and cried about you. That woman tried to sneak her in here, but you attacked her on sight. Toni couldn't even talk because she was so upset after that, she was sure you would hate her forever. And she saw how you looked too; she said you looked like you were half dead and that she'd made you this way." "If you hate me so much, then why are you telling me all this?" Cally asked the girl. "Because this is killing Toni inside," the girl sobbed. "Everyday she just sits there and moans about how much she hurt you. I told her it was my fault but she won't listen to me now, she only says that there's no way I'd do something like that to her and mopes some more. You're the only one she'll talk to. She just wants you to listen to her apologize, even just once." "You want me to talk to her?" Cally asked with trepidation. "I don't know if I can do that." "Did you like my sister?" The girl asked dead seriously. "Very much so," Cally answered immediately. "She was only person who saw me as beautiful. She was the only person in my life who had ever spoken to me like she did and actually meant it besides my mom and Stacy. She made me feel like it was worth it to wake up in the morning." "Then please," the girl begged. "Just let her come in here, let her come back to her senses so she can speak to you. I want my sister to go back to like she was when she was happy." Cally felt a different sadness fill her now, not for herself but for this girl sitting on her lap. "You love your sister so much," Cally said softly. "I'm so sorry." "She's the only person I have that loves me," the girl said mournfully. "But I can't let this go. It's all my fault. She's going to hate me now, but I can't bear to see her so sad anymore." "Can't you just explain it to her like you just did with me?" Cally asked. "Surely she'll understand." "I don't know that she will," the girl said with a sad smile. "She might look at me exactly like you looked at her, as some who betrayed her." "Then bring her in here now!" Cally said with a sudden fierceness. "I'll talk to her, but you need to be here too." "You'll really talk to her?" The girl asked hopefully. "You won't freak out again and throw things at her?" "Yeah, I will," Cally promised. Again the sad smile played upon the girl's face for a moment, but then she began to climb off of Cally and onto the floor. As she began to walk out of the room to get her sister Cally remembered she still didn't know the girl's name. "Hey!" the girl turned to look at her questioningly. "What's your name?" "It's Mikayla," the girl said, and then left the room. **** Stacy quickly ducked out of sight when she heard the young girl exiting Cally's hospital room. She made it around the nearby corner just in time to remain unseen. She had seen Toni's sister sneak into the room a short time ago, so she had peaked in to see what was going on. She had been rather shocked to see such a young girl slapping Cally in the face, but she had been equally shocked when the seemed to have succeeded in breaking Cally out of her blind and deaf depression. The Doctor and his nurses had come running immediately since they'd had someone watching with the camera, but Stacy had shooed them off and told them to let the girl continue. The doctor had caught on right away and agreed right away to turn the camera off to let the girls have their privacy. Stacy herself had stayed to listen in, in the hope she would hear what had caused Cally to become like she was. What she did hear shocked her to her very core. She had never suspected that this might be a lover issue for Cally. Since she'd been at her house, the girl had shown exactly zero interest in anything like boys or stuff like that. She had thought Cally was so self repressed that she didn't let herself feel anything toward anyone. To find out she had actually fell in love with that Toni girl was more than she had expected. It also made Cally's perked up behavior for that short period make a bit more sense. The rest of it though, what the girl had admitted, had sent a pang of sadness and shock through her again. The young girl had sounded so distraught and pained at the thought that she might have been losing her only loved one to Cally that she couldn't help but feel a little sympathy toward her despite the taboo nature of the relationship she had with her sister and what she had done to Cally. Stacy stayed and listened to it all. She watched as Cally showed more life than she had shown since that violent bout of crying she'd done when her mother had come. Once the young girl disappeared down a hall to retrieve her sister, Stacy sent a text message to Cally's mother to come to the outside of the room immediately. She showed up seemingly seconds later in a panic. "Did something happen?" Irena, Cally's mother, called out when she saw Stacy. Stacy grabbed her and pulled her around the corner. "Shh!" she said once she had the woman hidden. "Just wait and you'll see." A few moments later they both watched as Toni and her younger sister came back and entered the room. Irena immediately tried to move and stop the girls but Stacy restrained her by grabbing a hand. "Wait," she hissed quietly. "Just look in and watch. This is important." Irena looked confused and conflicted but Stacy was glad when she complied and only peeked into the room with her. She was even gladder when they saw and heard what went on in the room. **** Cally felt her heart skip a beat when Toni entered the hospital room. Gone was the strong and confidant girl from the cafeteria. What stood there now was a desperate and terrified shadow. It made Cally's hand tremble a little from the conflicting emotions running through her at seeing her like this. "Come in Toni," Cally said in a voice was surprisingly calm even to her. "I'm not going to attack you again. I can't." Cally tugged on the bed restraints to demonstrate. Toni walked the rest of the way in and stood in awkward silence as Mikayla stood at her side. "You can sit down." Cally said with a gesture with her head at the two chairs that had been brought in for her mom. Then she looked at Mikayla and felt a very surprising bubble of amusement, the first that she had felt in a very long time. She felt an unfamiliar smile try creep onto her face as she looked at the young girl. "It will be more comfortable than your last one," she said. She saw the girl blush furiously as she followed Toni over to the indicated seats. Toni just sat there for a long silent moment before she got the nerve up to speak. "Cally," Toni said in the voice of someone whose voice is tired out from crying to much or some other exertion. "I need to apologize." Toni paused to lick her lips. "I know I hurt you," she went on. "I know I hurt you badly. I never wanted to do that to you. What I did was terribly wrong..." Cally saw Mikayla flinch. "...I was weak. I shouldn't have betrayed you like that. I know it made everything I said to you seem like a lie, but they weren't lies. I meant them all, and I still mean them." Cally saw the terrible sadness on Mikayla's youthful face. Cally thought she was too young to look so defeated, to have the same face she herself had worn for the last week or so. Cally also looked at the remorse filled Toni who was slumped in her seat as if the apology had taken all her strength. Despite having asked for her to come, Cally had to think hard for what to say. "Toni, from what I've been told, you aren't entirely at fault." Cally said as clearly as she could. When Toni didn't respond she continued. "Your sister explained everything to me. You should listen to what she has to say." Toni looked at her sister and she saw Mikayla swallow nervously. "I tried to tell you before, but you wouldn't listen to me," Mikayla said softly. "But it's my fault Toni, not yours..." Mikayla repeated everything she had told Cally. In fact she thought the girl explained it all a little clearer and more thought out this time. When she was done Toni looked stunned, but not entirely convinced, she also looked a lot sadder than before. "Even from what you say Mikayla," Toni said. "It's still my fault, in fact it's worse than before. I'm the one who neglected and forgot about you and made you do what you did." "You didn't make me do anything!" Mikayla yelled. "I chose to do what I did. I was hurt and afraid, but I chose what I did to you. You didn't force me to do anything to you that day. I was the one who wanted Cally out of the way. It was my jealousy and my anger. I saw how you felt toward Cally. I wanted you to look at me that way again like you did before. I just didn't want to be cast aside!" Toni stared at her sister for a long stunned moment and then she leaned over in the chair and hugged Mikayla hard. "I'm so sorry to you too Mikayla. I still love you so much. But I started to fall in love with Cally too. I didn't want to push you aside. You're my sister, but I forgot that somehow, and I shouldn't have."
"Then just love her Toni," Cally said. "What do you mean?" Toni asked, and Cally saw the same question on Mikayla's face. "I mean you should go back to it being you and your sister. Forget about me Toni. It sounds like things were much happier when it was the two of you together, before I showed up." "But...we're sisters," Mikayla said. "Doesn't that bother you? And don't you want Toni too?" Cally shook her head. As she had sat and waited for Toni to come into the room, she had rethought everything. She had thought harder and clearer than she had in a long time. It had made her realize a number of things. "It doesn't bother me at all Mikayla," Cally said. "Why should I care? You both obviously love each other greatly. What does being sister matter. It's not like there's a pregnancy and inbreeding risk. You're just two people of love each other and that's that." "But what about Toni?" Mikayla asked in fearful anticipation. Cally looked at Toni and hoped the girl would forgive her for what she was about to say. "No Mikayla, I realized while you were gone, when I really thought about it, that I didn't love your sister at all." She looked at the stunned Toni. "I'm sorry Toni, but it's the truth. I'd only just met you. I was only so attached to you and so devastated because you were the only person who paid attention to me. I simply jumped at the first sign of light in my dark life. I didn't stop and think about it then, but now I realize that I simply ran blindly to you." Cally saw the surprise and on both girls faces. "Go back to Mikayla, Toni. She loves you and you her, it's a lot simpler that way. I was a temptation that made you stray, just think of me like that and go back." Cally saw understanding blossom on Toni's face, but Mikayla still needed more. "But what about you?" Mikayla asked. "I was willing to let you have Toni today." Cally actually felt a lot lighter and at peace with herself. She knew that she could have had something with Toni. Maybe. But it was just nice to know that someone had cared about her in that way. It actually gave her a bit of hope that she could find someone that she would actually love. She was happier knowing that these two would be happy, and that was a weird new feeling. "I'll be fine Mikayla," Cally told her, and felt for the first time in her life that she thought it might be the truth. "But thank you though. All I think I needed was that slap in the face." She saw Mikayla's face turn absolutely pink in embarrassment. Cally genuinely laughed at that and marveled at the sound. She hadn't made any noises like that in recent memory. After that Toni just smiled her thanks as she stood and led her sister from the room. Cally smiled after them with a much lighter heart. She was surprised though when her mother suddenly poked her head into the room. "Are you alright honey?" she asked immediately. "I'm sorry if I eavesdropped, but we were concerned about you." "We?" Cally asked. "Is Stacy out there too?" "Uh...yeah," Stacy said as she entered with an abashed look. "I was there too. "Well, it doesn't matter really," Cally said. "This way I don't have to explain anything to you." "I suppose not," her mom smiled. "But that was rather generous of you a moment ago." Cally shrugged. "I just didn't want to break them apart. I didn't actually love Toni, so it would have just been cruel to try and hold on to her." "But you do like girls though?" Mom asked curiously. "I think I do," Cally said thoughtfully. "I never bothered to look at anyone like that until a couple weeks ago. It's all kinda new for me. Does it bother you?" "Not as long as you're happy hon," Mom said. "Same here," Stacy put in. "So what do you want to do now Cally?" Mom asked. Cally only had to think about that for a moment. "I want to want to go back to school again. I want to try it again like I am now." Mom just smiled and Cally knew her life really wasn't as bad as she had always thought it was. She had just let herself think too much on darker things. From now on she knew she would look at things differently. |