I Learn That I'm Not Confused

by Teacup

Hi, my name is Beth, I am 14, blonde hair and have too nice of a body. I say that because I have old men, any where from 20-50 trying to hit on me everyday. I used to like the attention but the way they look at me creeps me out. I am proud of my body because I work hard for it, but I don't show it off. I come from a religious family, but we don't go to church anymore since dad passed away. we decided to spend time horseback riding since it was the last thing we all did together as a family with dad. I go to the hospital every chance I get and volunteer in the burn unit. there isn't much I can do but keep people/kids company and try to keep their mind off the pain. It's really sad but I keep a smile most of the time. I mean the hard ones are the people that have less then 50% chance to live but they are still conscious. I like to read to them.

One of the patients was a girl my age(13). She was a hero. She saved a baby from her neighbors home. I tear up just thinking about it. She had burns on her back from shielding the baby as she ran out the house. The babies parents almost died from smoke inhalation, but woke up in the hospital to hear the great news. At first Amy didn't want me in her room. The pain from burns are really depressing and some people plead for drugs and sometimes death, but the doctors can only sedate them a certain amount.

I kept visiting Amy little by little until she felt more comfortable. I would read The Outsiders to her when I could. It was both of our favorite story, even when Johnny dies it gave her hope. I got to know her parents and we all prayed together at the end of our visits. After 2 weeks they were going to send her home. I was really sad and was going to miss her. We connected, she was the first girl I could talk to that for some reason didn't see the attraction in boys like me. We were both confused about how our friends were going on about cute this and cute that and we didn't. We both acted like we did, which was funny when we both said so.

I went to the hospital on the day Amy was going home to say goodbye. This was the first I've seen her up. She was always face down in her bed. I mean the bed was specially designed for that, not like she was face down in a pillow. When I entered her room, my jaw dropped to the floor as her face lit up like an angel. I never saw anyone so beautiful. Her mom looked at me and looked at Amy and I could tell she knew. What did she know? I just realized myself what I knew. I was sooo embarrassed and scared. Her dad looked up, not knowing what was going on. I almost did an about face and walked out but her mom ran over and gave me a hug, I guess to help hide my embarrassment and to throw off any scent to her husband.

Man, she is as wonderful a mother as mine is. He said hi and gave me a quick hug. I kinda got my nerves under control, but was still shaken a bit. I walked over to Amy and nervously gave her a kiss on the cheek and gave her a present. She opened it up and her face lit up and a tear rolled down her cheek. It was an autographed book of the Outsiders. It only had Ralph Macchio's signature but it was priceless to see her face. I looked at her mom and she was tearing up. She immediately told her husband that I needed to be invited over. I guess the mother inside took over and wanted whatever happiness could be brought to her daughter.

They had lived an hour away from me and the hospital was about a half hour from my house in different directions. Luckily it was the beginning of summer and I could go down there the next day. My older brother(17) had his own car and said he would take me the next day. My brother and I were mean to each other growing up but the past couple years have become best friends.

I made arrangements to be dropped off in the morning and he would pick me up in the afternoon. When I arrived her mom met me outside. She asked me about mine and Amy's reaction yesterday and I told her we had talked about our lack of interest in boys. I said I was as shocked as anyone in that room and wasn't sure myself what I was feeling. She smiled and said, I'm afraid that's love my dear. I looked at her puzzled and she chuckled, oh so innocent. She explained to me how she started to notice her daughters interest in girls even though Amy hadn't put her finger on it yet as well as me. I was so uncomfortable but her mom gave me a hug and said we'll be ok. She said you girls have a connection. take your time and it may blossom into something wonderful.

I couldn't help but ask, and your ok with this? She smiled and said that it's all new to her, but she loved her daughter and just wants her to be her. I said, but I'm not even sure what, uhm.. She stopped me and said, that's why I said take it slow. just be friends and let whatever happen, happen. I said ok. She did say that we need to wait to tell her husband, to let her take care of him. I was still somewhat lost but said ok.

I went inside and Mr. Kerns said hello and went back to his tv. I made my way to Amy's room and we both lit up again. I thought ok, I have feelings for this girl. She was sitting up in bed with the most beautiful smile I've ever seen. She has short blonde hair and fair skin, very beautiful(hope I'm not saying it too much). I heard her mom sigh behind me, I looked just to see her smile and walk away. I went and sat next to Amy, gave her a kiss on her cheek and asked her how she felt. She took my hand and said that she wouldn't have made it without me. We never broke eye contact. I smiled and said how strong she was and brushed her hair to one side with my fingers.

She tilted her head down and said how her hair got ruined in the fire and was still ugly. I gave her a friendly slap on her hand and said it was beautiful. I said you're beautiful and before you know it, it will be long again and I'll be here to brush it for ya. She looked at me and said how beautiful I looked and started to say something when her mom came in with some food and drinks for us.

Her mom sat the tray down and said how lovely we both looked. She said I want you girls to feel comfortable around me and know you can talk to me about anything. and I did feel comfortable, she had this amazing motherly love like my mom. She told us that she had the same talk with both of us and that she felt like I was already like a daughter to her even though we've only met through hospital visits, we did talk alot during the visits. I smiled and told her how calm and warm I felt around her and we hugged.

We three sat there and talked for a couple hours and her mom really helped us open up an express how we felt about each other. She said she felt confident that we understood who we were and was very happy to support our feelings. She gave us a hug and left us to talk alone.

I had a constant smile when I looked into Amy's eyes as she did when she looked into mine. It was like a whole new way of communicating to someone that I have never experienced until now. We were talking about stuff we liked and disliked, growing closer with every word. Our eyes broke when an alarm went off and she got this sad look on her face. I knew from helping the nurses before that it was time to change her bandages. It was a painful experience, even though she was about 80% healed. Her mom came in asked if I needed help. I was so pleased that she was offering me to take care of Amy. I replied with a smile and she shut the door and went on her way.

Amy got in position to where we were both comfortable. I had her fresh bandages and medication ready. I removed her gown from her back. the burns covered most her upper back, but more on her right side. I could hear her dad turn the tv up as he knew she might start crying from the pain. I knew he was a good father to her but had a sensitive side and couldn't deal with seeing her in pain . She decided to lay down on her stomach. I started to peel the bandage off as she grimaced in pain. tears started rolling down her cheeks as she wiped the with her pillow. I got the bandage off and applied her medication. I felt so good being able to help Amy. I reapplied her new bandage and held her until the pain subsided. She moved closer to me and whispered in my ear to always be by her side. I looked at her and said I promise. I went to kiss her on her head, but she looked up and met her lips to mine. I closed my eyes and felt the softest loveliest feeling I have ever felt in my life. She nodded off for about fifteen minutes and I laid there watching her sleep. It was so peaceful and I could've laid there forever.

When she woke up she smiled and said you kept your promise. we both laughed and kissed again. Her lips and tongue were so soft. I always thought kisses would be wet and sloppy, but again I felt like we were communicating in a whole new way. She asked me if I could stay more over the summer and I smiled and said as much as I can. I got a call from my brother saying he was leaving home to come get me and I now had the sad look on my face. Amy slowly sat up and put her arm around me and said we have all the time in the world. I smiled again and slowly kissed her. I was in heaven. All my confusion was gone and all my questions had answers.

Her mom knocked on the door and came in saying my brother was here. Man that was a fast hour I thought. I looked at Amy and said I'll be back as soon as possible. She reached over and kissed me in front of mom. I looked up and she smiled. I knew it was all ok. Her mom walked me out and mr. Kerns got up and gave me a big hug and said he respected how brave I was for changing her bandages with a tear in his eye and went back to be with his daughter. Mrs Kerns told me to talk with my mom and to have her call so they could get together. I said I would and got in the car with my bro.

I told him what I had learned about myself on the way home and he said he would be in his room if I needed him when I talked to mom. God, I love my brother! We got home and mom had dinner ready. We ate and had a normal family discussion. Me and mom started clearing the table and my brother stopped us and said he would do it. I said thank you and grabbed mom by the hand and led her into her bedroom. She knew we where about to have another girl girl talk and she encouraged them but I didn't know how she'd react to this one.

We sat on the bed and I must've stared at her for a full minute before she broke the silence. She knew me and told me that I could trust her with anything. I started telling her how I wasn't attracted to boys and it was so confusing for me. I said the I got all my answers today when I spent time with Amy. She said she already had an Idea that I was interested in girls and I said when were you gonna tell me? She smiled and said That's not something she can tell me, that I had to figure out on my own. I started to tear up and asked her if she was ok with it. She grabbed my hand and gave me a friendly slap, pulled me closer and hugged me like the world was ending. I will always love you she responded, more and more everyday. My brother ran in and joined the hug. I laughed, calling him a dork and said finish the kitchen and wiped tears from my eyes. He left us alone again.

My mom asked me what opened my eyes all of a sudden, knowing it was Amy but wanting to hear the story. I told her how we almost had a meltdown in the hospital and her mom saved the day. My mom laughed and said she wanted to meet Amy and her mom. I said of course, Mrs Kerns is expecting your call. We talked for an hour or so and she said that when we know it's the right time that she wants us to feel comfortable in my room and not to go anywhere else unless her mom is comfortable with that over there. I said ok and we hugged again. She said at least I don't have to worry about you getting pregnant anymore and I said MOM! she chuckled and apologized.

Mrs Kerns set up dinner plans for us on saturday, but encouraged us to come as early as we wanted. We went after lunch and I introduced her to Amy's parents. Her mom and mine followed me into Amy's room and we both lit the room up. I introduced them and my mom gave her a gingerly hug with a tear in her eye. I said you won't break her mom, knowing she was afraid to hurt her burns. We all got a chuckle and the moms went to talk.

I sat down next to Amy and we embraced each other and kissed like there was no tomorrow. I asked her how she felt and she said better now. She said as soon as I left that all she could think about was being with me. I told her I never felt this good before and she said the same. After about an hour or so, our moms came in and we discussed our new relationship. There was nothing but support coming from our moms. I was so happy.

The next couple weeks I spent all the time I could with Amy, changing her bandages until she didn't need the care anymore. We started going places, doing things that normal couples do. Everywhere we went she was treated like a celebrity. It made me feel good that she was being treated so well. It didn't take long for her to gain her upper body strength back with her physical therapy, so we did some skiing and snowboarding.

Her parents were wanting a vacation but Amy didn't want to leave me, so her mom talked mr Kerns into fueling up the rv and doing a road trip and letting Amy stay with us. We had stayed the night with each other before but we have just started having more feelings for each other. We had a party we were invited to at a friends house tonight. We are gonna go make an appearance but not stay long because they were gonna have a few older teens there with alcohol. Even though our friends are cool with our relationship, boys get stupid when drunk and try to urge us to make out. Amy had a white skirt with a black top and I wore just the opposite colors. My brother drove us there and hung out outside. My friends flirt with him too much and he gets tired of it sometimes.

We had a good time and said our goodbyes, nobody wanted us to leave but the boys started getting drunk and we knew that was our que. My brother dropped us off and went back to make sure nothing got out of hand at the party. He's such a good person. We went inside hand in hand. My mom asked us about our night and we said we had fun. She asked if we were drunk and we said no. She said you two look like you are. She shut up and smiled. She grabbed her things and said she would be in her room the rest of the night if we need her. Me and Amy looked at each other and at the same time said, you're acting weird and she smiled and went to her room. I figured out later she knew more than we did.

Amy and I thought cool, we have the big screen to ourselves. We turned it on and mom had The Outsiders playing and we both just collapsed in each others arms. We were laying there watching and she started nibbling my ear. I smiled and turned to her and we were lost in each other. I felt so good with her but the feelings were stronger and we somehow ended laying side by side longways on the couch. It was nothing unusual but we both noticed this because both our legs were in between each other and it gave us a feeling that was new to both of us. She looked at me and said I love you, I said I love you too. We looked in each others eyes knowing we've been saying that without speaking already. I was so light headed and she was almost hanging on me to stay with me as we walked to my room. I thought "damn, I do feel drunk".

I closed the door as she turned around and we just stared at one another for five minutes it seemed. I walked to her and held her hand, almost like I was proposing to her it felt. she pulled me closer and we locked lips. I loved feeling her tongue dance with mine. I felt her reach to the side and unzip my skirt. I reach around and started lifting her blouse. We took turns undressing until we were holding each other bare skin to bare skin. We stood there for a minute because we both realized we needed to catch our breaths. I could feel her heartbeat against my chest.I was so happy I found someone I could love and make me feel the way she does. She whispered to me that she could hold me like this for eternity.

We laid down on the bed kissing. I noticed every little touch, but her breast against mine felt sooo good and when our legs intertwined and our pussy touched we both sighed in delight. I was on top of her and she grabbed my hips. I arched my back and we started moving together. I was exploring her body as she was mine. She ran one hand up the back of my thigh and I was sliding my hand down her belly into our kissing pussies. There was so much moisture and my hand met her pussy the same time hers met mine. we were like one, moving and exploring each other, stealing kisses anytime we had our breath. I couldn't believe how good I felt. I felt her body tense up and she let out a high pitched moan. She whispered to me she just came and I was a little relieved because I thought maybe her back was hurt. Soon after I could feel pressure building in my groins and whoosh, I felt the most exhilarating release of pleasure. I lost control of my body as my belly tensed up and my pussy exploded. I screamed in delight and dropped unto my lover. we laid there caressing each other, speechless, trying to catch our breath. I rolled off her some and circled my fingers around her sweaty belly and breast as we both slowly came back down to earth.

At the same time we both said, I could eat a horse and laughed. We cleaned each other off with some tissues I had and got dressed. We both had trouble standing as our knees were weak. We headed for the kitchen and mom had some chicken heated up for us. We shyly sat at the counter thinking how loud were we.

I looked at the clock and it was 2 am already. We got home at 11 and watched about a half hour of the movie. I tapped Amy on her leg and pointed at the clock, her jaw dropped. My mom saw me point and looked at the time. She couldn't help but smile and said we should listen to some music a bit more than we do. We picked up on her hint and blushed as she served our plates. Thank you Ms. J she said and I said thank you mom. I was proud of Amy for what she asked my mom and I think she did to show the love and trust she had in my mom. She asked her why we could barely walk when we got out of bed. My mom smiled with joy because of the trust question that would help bring us all a little closer. My mom said "first it's good you two can experience orgasms at your age, not many women can". She said second "an orgasm is so intense as you now know, it takes alot of energy to produce and I believe it takes time for your mind to get some motor skills back", and third she said "I just want to say how happy I am that you girls are truly in love", "It makes it so easy to accept you into our family Amy". We all teared up and gave a big hug.

I asked If Robby was home yet and she said he was dropping some kids off at their homes. Just then he came in surprised we were all still up. he rubbed me on the top of my head and whispered "you're glowing". With my head down, avoiding eye contact with him, I just kept eating. He gave mom a kiss on her cheek and some kids got in trouble and the cops might be by. He said he started taking the alcohol from the minors because they were becoming unsafe and he had an altercation with a couple of them. I thanked him for being a good brother and my mom for the chicken and pulled Amy back to my room.

We both went straight for the stereo. I turned off the lights and turned on this cool glowing setup of stars and planets my brother rigged on my ceiling. We laid down and started making out again. We fell asleep in our arms and woke the same. We got up and brushed our teeth and curled back up under the covers. It was only 6:30 but I was wide awake. I was starting to get turned on again because Amy was playing with my nipples. She lifted up my shirt and started kissing my chest. It felt sooo good. I closed my eyes and relaxed as she tended to me so lovely. I felt her as her lips moved down to my stomach. my eyes opened and she looked up still kissing as to see if i'm ok with where she's heading. I brushed her hair with my hand as an ok gesture and she worked her way down. sliding the lip of my boxers so she could kiss my hips. My eyes closed back up on their own as I started to leave this earth again it seemed. I lifted my ass as she tugged again on my boxers. I looked as she pulled them off my ankles. She has already worked her clothes off too. She started kissing my ankle. She moved down to my calf kissing and then started licking my skin. I wanted all that attention in one place by now but I knew it was worth the wait. She was now kissing my knee and pushed my foot straight up in the air. She started kissing the back of my knee and my thigh. I noticed moisture running down my bum from my pussy.

She was doing such a great job I actually started slightly worrying if I could make her this happen and that went away as soo as she made it to my inner thigh. Oh god she was so close to my pussy and I love her so much, all these great feelings attacking me from all directions. I shivered when her lips met my pussy for the first time. I let go, she was mine, I was hers, she owned me. I would never ever think or look at another girl as long as I lived. Her tongue slid up and down spreading my lips oh so smoothly. She explored every part of my pussy with her tongue. I tried to remember the spots that made me tense up in pleasure as she learned me, so that I could focus on her and show her how great she made me feel.

She started licking my clit and I said yes, really loud. She knew to focus there now as we were both learning new things. As she was licking my clit with her soft tongue she pressed her finger to my hole and rolled her eyes up to look at me. I smiled in lust and nodded. she slid her finger inside me and I came instantly. I screamed out again quickly pillowing my face. I pressed my feet to the bed and bucked my ass into her face. I lost control, I don't know why but I apologized for my body taking over the controls. She smiled and said, never apologize and I sunk back down and enjoyed as she finished eating me out. She worked her way up my belly to my tits and landed her juicy lips on mine. There was something special about kissing her with my juices on her.

I liked how she worked her body next. She arched her back and I started sucking on my lovers tits. she slowly moved up as I kissed her tummy and her ribs. She gave just the right amount of time to explore her body with my tongue slowly working to her hips. I could smell her sex juices getting closer.I had my hand around her small muscular butt. She really wasn't muscular, muscular, but had a very tone body. She raised one of her feet and put it by my head. This gave me a perfect view of her pussy. I pet it with my hand and she tensed up and moaned. I spread her wet lips with my fingers and plunged my tongue as far in as I could . She lost it. I was surprised how fast she started cumming. She lost her balance or all muscle control and fell over.

I stayed with her and kept licking her juices, going for every spot that felt good when she licked me. Her legs tightened around my head. I wasn't sure what I enjoyed more, pleasing her or her pleasing me. That's when I realized we were truly in love. It doesn't matter, not just in sex but anything we do. We love to please each other. I explored every part of her pussy with my tongue and she was still rocking her body to the movements of my tongue. I slid my tongue up to her clit and slid my finger in her pussy. Her legs released my head and went straight out. She screamed and shivered in delight. I kept sliding my finger in and out of her quivering pussy(mine was still quivering too) until her motions slowed. I crawled up into her arms and kissed her til our heart rates were back to normal.

She rolled over so we could spoon. I teared up in appreciation as I saw her fire scarred back that she earned for saving a babies life. I lighly traced my fingers around the ripples of her damaged skin, asking her if it bothered her. She said no, it feels good to the parts that I still have feeling to. She said she always wondered just after the fire how anybody could love her with a hideous deformity. Before I could speak she said what I was gonna say. She says I know you see it as a beautiful part of me and she was right. I pulled her tight against me and teared up when I saw her tears running down her face. She was strong but petite like me. I just imagined her being any bigger and she wouldn't be in my arms right now.

Mom tapped on the door "breakfast". I went to get up, but she held me down just admiring my body for one last second. We kissed and dressed and headed to the kitchen. It was 9:00. Damn I said and quickly apologized for my tongue. My mom looked at me and I said it was just 6:30. everyone laughed and it became an inside joke towards me from there on out. My brother stood up and gave Amy a hug. He said I love you like a sister and am proud of how good of a person you are and how happy you make my sis. Me and mom started tearing up and Amy smiled with a tear and gave a big hug back. We all got in a family hug and said a quick prayer.

I love my girlfriend and her family. Her mom told her dad over vacation and didn't like it at first, but he took a real liking to my brother. I guess because he working to be a navy seal and they like fishing and hunting together too. After we all sat around, Him, His wife, my mom. my bro and Amy and I and talked about it for a while, he couldn't help but see our love and accepted us as family.