I Almost Didn't, Part 5

by Thom

The few days between Trish’s phone call, creating an epiphany about my feelings and desires for Laura, and her arrival went by way too fast. I was feeling the pressure of getting ready to teach classes in a couple of weeks and I let that distract me from putting any serious energy into thinking about how to proceed with Laura. I was really curious to know how the conversation went between her and her mother that led to the one I had with Trish.

I found myself even more incredibly horny those days, no doubt from the stress of these life events I was juggling but unable to fantasize being with Laura anymore because it was making me too anxious. Instead I got myself off thinking about my friend’s mom that I had told Laura a little bit about. I wonder if I was putting myself in the role of the little girl, as I was when that happened, in order to better understand what Laura might be feeling and thinking.

I was watching anxiously for her when the drop off time arrived. I went out to greet them as I saw Trish pull up. I really wanted to hide in my apartment and wait for Laura to ring the bell but it was more important that I break the ice if I was going to be able to continue to see Laura and interact with her mother. I’m glad I did because Trish was extremely warm and affectionate with me. She got out of the car and helped Laura with her overnight bag. Then she surprised me by giving me a firm hug, kiss on the cheek and said that she hoped we had a good time.

Laura and I ran into my apartment with her stuff and waved to her mother as she drove away. I then got down on my knees in front of her and Laura pushed herself into my arms. My head was now below hers and she bent down and pressed her lips onto mine telling me how much she had missed me. I was almost crying with the sensations I was having with her in my arms, her little lips on mine, I wanted to suck her whole being into my mouth. Pull her body so close to mine that we fused into one. What was I going to do with the desire I had been denying these last few days?

I asked Laura if she wanted to have supper or would she like to take a walk to the park that is near by my apartment or maybe she wanted to do something else. She thought a walk would be neat and then we should eat because she was hungry, hadn’t eaten all day. I hadn’t either so we were in synch with that. Laura said she thought it was too bad there wasn’t someplace we could go swimming. Agreeing, I suggested that I was thinking maybe we could take a bubble bath after dinner, before bed and that we wouldn’t even have to change into our bathing suits to do it. A loud yippee was her response to that suggestion and my response was a small leak into my panties.

On our walk I brought up the conversation with her mother and wondered what had prompted it. I didn’t tell her how her mother had concluded our talk but I left Laura with the impression that her mother understood we were kind of exceptionally close for a girl her age and a woman my age.

Laura confessed that she had told her mother about her feelings about girls and boys and what she and Ellie had been up to and pretty much most of what she and I had been up to. I was more than a little embarrassed that my advances to Laura were known to her mother but in the end it would be the best I thought if everyone was open about this situation.

By this time we were walking in the park near my apartment and we were holding hands and sometimes I would be walking with my arm around Laura and hers would be around me. It was a warm summer evening and there were a lot of people out and about. We caught lots of odd looks from adults, especially mothers of smaller children because it was pretty obvious that we weren’t mother and daughter unless I had had her at a pretty young age. I didn’t want to get singled out for the feelings I was having for Laura but I was so much in love with her at that point that I didn’t care too much what people were thinking.

We found ourselves at the swings in the park and we took turns pushing each other in them. Oh, I don’t think I mentioned that Laura was wearing really short, cutoff denim shorts so that her gangly legs were bare right up to her crotch and a little T shirt that did not quite cover her middle. Her tummy and her cute little navel were off and on visible as she walked or moved around. She kicked off her flip flops when she was swinging. I was drinking up her bare legs and feet as they kicked out, trying to push herself higher and higher in the swing. I thought she was just the sexiest thing and I could hardly wait to strip her out of these clothes and get into a bath with her and then into bed.

We walked back to my apartment and had our supper. There was still going to be an hour or so of daylight but without discussing it we both seemed to be anxious to be in a bath and then in bed together. I was pleased that Laura seemed comfortable with me and with my affection even though we hadn’t seen each other in a bit. I think she had been missing me as much as I had her.

After supper we went off to get her things settled. I asked her outright if she wanted to sleep in the spare room since there as an extra bed and she immediately protested that she wanted to sleep with me. She hoped that I wanted to sleep with her and I told her I was hoping beyond hope that she would. So we put her stuff away in my bed room. I gave her drawer space and showed her a spot in the closet that could be hers if she were to sleep over another time and had hanging clothes. I wanted her to feel welcome. I really wanted her to move in with me permanently but I was holding that out as a far away dream.

I offered then that we could do a bubble bath and Laura was all giggly and animated about it. Like a mirror image of one another though way different sizes, we pulled off our T shirts and shorts and panties. I had a sports bra on that she didn’t have but we soon stood facing each other naked. Her body was precious and it was all I could do not to bend down and put my mouth on her little-girl mound. I had shaved all of the hair off of my cunny since I had come back from the island and I saw Laura starring at it. I had always kept it short but now it was bare like hers. She remarked how my cunny was like a little girls cunny now, she said it looked like Ellie’s. I took this as a complement knowing how she felt about Ellie.

We went into the bathroom and filled the tub with hot water and bubble bath oil. It was still pretty warm out so we had the bathroom window open and we left the lights turned off. I climbed in and Laura followed, sitting between my legs. I raised my knees, clasping her body between them and she eased back, laying her head on my chest and held onto me at my thighs. Wrapping my arms around her, I put my palms on her nearly flat chest and cupped her little nips as if she had tits that I could hold. I had pulled her bum into my crotch with the press of my thighs. I could feel my labia up against her butt cheeks.

We were both silent as I held her in this embrace from behind. I wanted her to beg me to caress her chest or maybe touch her between her legs but those were words that would have come from an older girl or woman who had found herself in this situation. Or maybe they were words that I put into my head that I wanted her to say. Her head on my breast could have easily turned slightly and found her lips on an erect nipple. But without stirring much from there, we held on tight until the water cooled and our skin wrinkled all up and we decided to get out.

The sun had gone down, the bathroom was dark. We wrapped up in big soft towels to dry but with the evening still very warm we left the towels behind and went to the bedroom. I asked Laura if she needed a snack and she declined saying she was tired and thought she would like to go to sleep. We climbed into bed and covered ourselves with only a sheet. Laura lay on her side toward me and we began to kiss. I instinctively caressed her chest and back and down to her bum and the back of her thighs and then circled back to repeat the path again. I knew that if I stopped, I would find my hand between her legs, touching her cunny and more, probing it with a finger. Finding her sex. Her free hand was on my breast, cupping its nipple and then it moved to the other one, not exactly caressing but enough to excite me. I was screaming inside with desire for her and outwardly trying not to move and squirm and pant and go for my sex to relieve the huge ache I was feeling.

Finally, Laura offered us an out from this predicament that we found ourselves in. Apparently feeling as aroused as I, she moved her hand from my breast to her pussy and began to diddle herself. It took me by surprise and something like a minute or so went by before I fully comprehended what she was doing. We were still passionately kissing one another, I had begun to feel her tongue pressing between my lips and I was momentarily distracted wondering how she had learned to do that. As she touched herself, her breathing became rhythmic and her little body stiffened a bit next to mine. My arousal peeked and I left off my caressing her to find my own sweet spot which had been calling me since I first saw Laura getting out of her mother’s car.

Her shuddering body as she came, would push me over to my own climax. I followed her like that through several repetitions until she released herself and her hand returned to my breast. We weren’t so much kissing by then as just trying to catch our breath with our mouths pressed together.

Laura was soon asleep I pulled her tight against me with the arm I had wrapped around her so that I could feel as much of her skin against mine as possible. I was physically exhausted but I didn’t want to give up the beautiful feelings I was having; sexually satisfied, my little Laura so close to me, the rest of the world non existent.

We woke pretty early the next morning having gone to sleep so early the night before. Laura was still cuddled in my arms. I’m not sure we had moved. She rubbed her little sleepy eyes and nuzzled her nose into my breast. I kissed her on the top of her head and wished her a good morning. She said the night before had been fun. I asked her what parts were the best for her, hoping to tease out of her that it was the parts that were the best for me, but she said all of them. And I guess I felt that way too.

We spent Saturday school shopping for Laura. Trish had given me a budget, which with their money was pretty much whatever Laura thought she wanted, and we went to the shops in town that Laura wanted to shop in. I didn’t know the town at all but her tastes and mine aren’t outrageously different so except places where they only carried stuff her size, I was able to get some stuff for my new job too. I can’t think of when I laughed or more likely giggled as much as that day. We were both giddy and silly as we shared dressing rooms trying on clothes.

We had lunch out at a fancy place and shopped some more until we were completely drained. We schlepped out clothes home and after a bit of a rest Laura thought we should have a fashion show with all of the new clothes we bought. What a marvelous idea I exclaimed and thought to myself that I would get to watch Laura dress and undress like a dozen times and she me. I was aroused just thinking about it. It was even better in practice.

We would both strip down to panties and then put on an outfit and walk back and forth in the living room like models would do at a real fashion show. Laura got the idea with a short, denim skirt that she had bought that it would look even sexier if she wore it without panties so she slipped hers off. She was right of course. Hiking it up a bit as she walked you could see the bottom of her pert little butt sticking out. I tried one of my skirts on without panties too though I had to raise mine quite a bit before you could see my butt.

I have to admit that I had the next good idea with the fashion show, to see what we would each look like sitting in our skirts on a hard chair without panties, flashing each other. I moved a couple of chairs into the living room and we sat across from one another. We started with our legs crossed and then uncrossed and then slightly spread. Finally we hiked up our skirts and really flashed each other our bare cunnies. This was so hot, I can’t tell you how aroused I was and I could resist touching myself and telling Laura how really sexy she was to me. Laura agreed and touched herself too and we masturbated ourselves while we had our skirts hiked up like to our waist across from each other.

When we were finished, Laura came and sat on my lap and put her arms around me. She planted one of her great kisses on my lips and I returned it. She said she really liked to do sexy things with me and that it was better than it was with Ellie because I had better ideas. Because I’ve been doing this longer than you and Ellie of course I offered. I added that we didn’t want her to miss out on making things up on her own or exploring stuff about her body and another girl’s body and how a physical relationship played itself out. I told her that we didn’t want her to grow up too fast regarding sex because you miss a lot of the innocent discovery that comes with making it up as you go along.

Laura said that her mother had said pretty much the same thing to her and that she had been thinking about it and was a bit confused between being cautious and acting out feelings she was having for me and for Ellie. Laura didn’t really say it that way but I was pretty sure that’s what she meant. I told her that I was enjoying our playing with ourselves together and our comfort in being naked and holding and kissing one another but I thought we should probably not take things any further until we both had time to think about it for awhile. That didn’t seem to totally sit well with Laura but she acquiesced.

We did another bubble bath that evening after dinner but instead of going right to bed, I had rented a movie. It was a coming of age movie with a girl as the main character. The girl was really sexy and they made her really cute and perky in the film but she was also very, very smart and we thought that was neat. Neat that a movie would make a girl both smart and sexy.

The movie kept us up late so we were pretty tired by the time it was over and we went right to bed. We slept naked again which was now, it seemed, our habit and one I liked a lot. We kissed for a little while and I caressed her chest and back and bum but we didn’t do anything else that night. Laura was soon asleep. Her mouth was still near mine from our kisses and I held her tight and inhaled her breath and took in her smells and truly wanted that moment to go on forever.

The next morning was uneventful except that I didn’t want it to end. Laura was kind of moping around too. We cuddled a bit in bed and kissed. I pulled her on top of me to get the sensation of her skin pressing on mine one more time because I didn’t know when, if ever, we might get another chance to be together like that. As the time neared for Trish to come by for Laura, I began to get anxious knowing that Laura would probably tell her mother we had diddled ourselves in bed and watched each other diddle ourselves at our fashion show. Would Trish think I had crossed a line? Many people would think so but they would think the line was long ago and far away compared with our weekend together.

Laura and I greeted her at the door. Laura was all bouncy and giggly because we had been playing a silly game and she was eager to show her mom the clothes we had bought. I made iced tea and we hung out while Laura modeled again but this time without the bare bum and we didn’t end up jigging ourselves. Laura, though, at one point couldn’t help but show off her panties by hiking up her short skirt. I wonder if Trish noticed how embarrassed I became.

I felt so alone after they left. I needed someone intimate in my life. Could I make it an eight year old girl? Would her mother let me make it an eight year old girl? If I got an age appropriate girl friend, what would she think of Laura and what would Laura think of her? Fortunately, I suppose, I had too much work ahead of me over the next two weeks getting ready to start teaching my classes or I might have gotten down right depressed?