A Change of Heart, Part 3

by Thom and Patricia Que

It was midweek before I could see Nancy again. We had arranged for her to come over on Wednesday after her morning classes. I wasn’t teaching so I was going to have another morning where I would be forced to occupy myself before she turned up. I was rid of hubbie and the girls a bit after 9 as usual and went straight to the den, stripping off my tee and panties along the way. While the computer was booting up though, I went off to the dirty clothes hamper and my bedside drawer. The former for some soiled panties from my daughters Jenny and Lisa and the latter to get a vib because while I wanted to come, I didn’t want to be raw when Nancy turned up. I was looking forward to her hands and mouth.

I was reading some stories about sisters in love when I decided that I would invite my sister down for a weekend and talk to her about what we had done as kids with my aunt. Since she left for college, and didn’t return to me as she promised, we haven’t spoken about that time, not even once. In my sexual reawakening and change of heart about my relationships, I was missing her and even wondered if we couldn’t rekindle our relationship. Sometimes as I looked at my little girl sites, her face would replace the one on the screen. I was even thinking that a threesome with her and Nancy would be nice too.

So, I spent the morning jigging off with my vibe and the panties while I read hot stories and looked at pics from the little girl sites. I had also stumbled onto a bondage site with girl on girl and I was finding that hot too. It got me wondering if I was going through my midlife crisis with all of this sexual arousal and exploration even though I wasn’t anywhere near middle age. I think I’ve just emerged from a nunnery.

I was naked again when Nancy arrived but this time I had the vibe in my hand in addition to the panties. I told her that I was not always this depraved. It was not getting enough loving with her that was causing me to be so desperate. I saw her glance over at the bondage scene that was still up on the computer. Nancy told me that she would take care of mommy seeing that I was feeling so horny and she pulled off her skirt and blouse. Nothing under the blouse naturally because it wasn’t necessary over her flat chest. Turned out nothing under the skirt either.

When I asked her about that, she told me it had been Erin’s idea that she not wear any panties to class that day so that Erin could get some up-skirt and see her cunny when Nancy sat down. What I exclaimed? Since when do you take off your panties when one of your 5th grade students wants to look up your skirt? Well, Nancy explained, you do that when the student threatens to tell others about you feeling up one of the other teachers in the teacher’s lounge. And besides it had been fun to flash the students.

I was already dripping come down my leg before she told me about her exposing her bare pussy to her class but now it was running like a faucet. It was incredibly hot thinking about doing it and even more hot thinking about Nancy doing it. The little girls would, no doubt, be amazed that she had a little bare cunny like theirs if they had seen any grown up ones. The little boys would be too embarrassed to stand up. I decided not to ask Nancy what she thought Erin might ask her to do next because I didn’t want to spoil the moment and scooped her up and carried her into the bedroom. She scrunched herself down on my chest and went for a nipple and began to nurse as we walked.

I backed up onto the bed, holding her on top of me so that her mouth didn’t come unattached from my nipple and settled back on the bed with Nancy on top of me. I caressed her chest and her bum, sliding a finger into her ass crack to feel her rose bud. She was moist there and my finger slid back and forth easily over her back hole. I took my other hand and slid it between her legs from the front. Please finger me mommy she whispered taking her mouth off of my nipple and she squirmed over and took the other one and began to nurse again.

I rocked her sex and her bum in my two hands cupped tightly on her flesh for a bit of a tease and then brought my fingers up onto her clit and gave it a couple of good pulls. Nancy immediately stiffened into one of her orgasms with her legs stretched out and her thighs pushed tightly together. Her mouth left my nipple and reached up to mine. We exchanged tongues as she panted into my mouth. Again, mommy please she pleaded I’ve missed you so much mommy and I complied while she reached succeeding climaxes. The little one is as insatiable as I am.

Nancy climbed up on my body after that and pushed down so that she could suckle on me some more. This put her cunny roughly at mine and it was aching terribly for some relief. I pulled my feet up to my butt and rocked my hips so that it thrust my cunt into hers. She straightened her legs, arching her back slightly and pushed her sex into mine and we started to rub together. I put my hands on her ass with my fingertips in her crack to guide its movements

We found a pace that seemed to be working for both of us. I could feel our juices mixing between our legs. We were not so much rubbing as sliding back and forth as we got wetter and wetter. Nancy was panting and trying to keep her mouth on my nipple. Her other hand was caressing my other tit vigorously, pulling on my already erect nipple. We shortly came in waves sort of alternating them. First Nancy as the wave hit the beach then I as it receded.

As it got close to the time the kids were to come home, we went out for a skinny dip in the pool. The kids had already found us naked and my practically groping Nancy the last time she was here so we weren’t going to hide this time. I knew the girls wanted to go for a swim too after school so we were going to already be there when they got home. The girls and I swim naked sometimes when their dad isn’t around so they don’t think its any big deal anyway.

I was rough housing with Nancy when Jenny and Lisa came running out. They acted happy to see Nancy. Being so much like them, they have really taken to her. I told them they could pile their clothes in the family room if they wanted to come for a swim and in a few minutes they both returned naked and jumped in the pool. Jenny and Nancy started to rough house right away in the shallow end of the pool. Splashing each other with water and trying to tickle one another. Then Lisa got brave and got in on the action.

Seeing my little lover and my daughters cavorting, all naked, got me going again. I first started off to the deeper waters so that I might be able to touch myself without being noticed when I remembered the water jet at the top of the pool that feeds the water back in from the filter. It’s just the right depth for me rest my arms on the side of the pool and let the jet shoot over my pussy from behind. I bit my tongue as I came watching the naked girls so that I didn’t give myself away.

We all said goodbye to Nancy just before hubbie came home without any firm plans on when I or we would see her again. Hubbie was supposed to be away the following week on a business trip and Jenny had suggested that Nancy stay over, sort of an all girls sleep over. I was certainly all for Nancy staying over but I was wondering how I would get any if the girls were around. Would Jenny be walking in on us as Nancy went down on me like she was walking in on me jigging myself at the computer? After she left, I went to the phone and called my sister Sarah to see if she couldn’t come down for the weekend and bring her two daughters with her. They are just a tad older than Jenny and Lisa, close enough in age to keep each other entertained while I figured out if Sarah still had any feelings for me.

I saw Nancy at school on Thursday and it was really just frustrating because we couldn’t be together and weren’t going to have any alone time until after the weekend. Nancy had plans already with family and Sarah had agreed to visit. We did have a few minutes in the teacher’s lounge and as I groped her I realized she was again without panties under a short skirt. I told her she was going to get fired if she kept that up. She told me that if she didn’t keep it up, Erin was going to turn us in and we would probably both be fired. Erin was demanding to see her after school one evening and she was probably going to try to figure out how to connect with her on Friday evening before she left town.

The weekends have gotten really hard for me because hubbie and the girls are around and I don’t have the time to myself to take care of my evolving sexuality. Friday evening was particularly gruesome because I knew Nancy was probably with Erin and I wasn’t going to hear anything about it until sometime later. I woke up early Saturday morning to try to organize for my sister Sarah coming and walked into the den to find Jenny on my computer. She had found my little girl pictures and some bondage pictures that I had saved and I could see her little hand digging vigorously at her crotch. I was taken aback at how much she looked like a miniature me at that moment, even taking after my sexual proclivities.

As I approached her, without her knowing it, I glanced over the back of the chair to see that she had pulled her panties down to her knees though she still had her tee shirt on. She had a couple of pictures open and her hand was doing quite a job probing her slit and pulling on her clit. I backed out of the room so as not to startle her and waited for her to finish. I was just outside of the den when she came out and she knew immediately that she had been caught. I grabbed her hand and led her into her bedroom so we could be alone.

Jenny apologized for looking at my pictures. I told her she didn’t owe me any apology and that maybe I owed her an apology for not coming clean before about what I was up to at the computer. Sometimes, I told her, I needed to make myself feel better by touching myself and that pictures helped me do that. I admitted that I had noticed that she used her hand on herself and that everyone did it once in awhile. Jenny reported that Lisa did it too and that they had done it together a couple of times and I wasn’t angry was I? No, I wasn’t angry a bit I was quick to add while I was sorting out her saying that her and her sister had done it together. All of my nerve endings were acutely aware that she and her sister were roughly the same age that my sister and I were when we became lovers.

Up until the next moment I was fully prepared to deal with the topics we were discussing. Though I wasn’t totally happy that Jenny had found pictures of little girls and women tied up on my computer, it was what it was and she had found it stimulating as well, obviously. I didn’t ask her details about what was the most arousing for her. I supposed that was grist for a future conversation. What she asked me though, totally threw me for a loop and I wasn’t prepared to answer. Was I in love with Nancy, she wanted to know. Did I love Nancy more than her or Lisa?

I thought that was an interesting way of putting it. She wasn’t confusing my love of Nancy with my love for her father. Was that because her father was so distant from all of us that he was just who he was and had nothing to do with the rest of us. Was she worried about my loving Nancy not because I was her lover but because she was just another little girl like her who was suddenly competing for my affection and attention? What I said next was going to be one of those significant events that you repeatedly replay as your life unfolds.

I told Jenny that I first and foremost loved her and Lisa as daughters and that I loved Nancy as a friend and that maybe it was hard at her age to understand the difference. Jenny wisely answered that she did understand and that she wanted me to know that I could love her as a friend as well as a daughter.

That she thought she could be both. I wanted to reach for my sex and touch myself but I resisted less I send her the wrong message at the moment, though it was a message that I wanted to send her. A message of accepting her as a friend and a lover and a daughter but I wasn’t willing to face up to that, at that moment. It would have to wait until I was a bit braver and sorted some things out, like my sister who was nearly on my door step and Nancy who was getting her self tangled up with a 5th grader at the school we taught at, probably already had the night before and I just didn’t know the details. What had I wrought? I told her I was sure she could be all of those to me and that someday we might go that way but at the moment, she and Lisa were my daughters and there was no love that was stronger than that.

I was hoping beyond hope probably that she would buy that line. I don’t think she did and I don’t think she was satisfied with the outcome. I think she wanted me, period, but I wanted to approach that in my own way, in my own time and not on her terms. I heard my sister pulling into the drive way. I would have only limited chances with Sarah alone while she was around. I was planning on making the best of them.

I greeted my sister with an extra press to a kiss on the lips and it got her attention. I had hoped it would awaken an old ache and as it turns out, it did the trick. We had hubbie and the girls around for the weekend so it was going to have to be at night after everyone was in bed that we would be alone. Sarah dragged me into the bathroom with her though and closed the door. She hiked up her skirt and pulled down her sexy panties and sat down and started to pee. She pulled me over to her and buried her face in my tummy and asked me what that kiss was all about and had I been thinking about our childhood. I admitted I had been and asked her if she ever thought about it.

Sarah sighed that she had been thinking a lot about it recently and was hoping to talk with me about it sometime but she hadn’t been brave enough to bring it up. Or do something about it, I offered. She responded by pulling my head down to hers and kissing me passionately on the lips. Our hands went for each other’s breasts. I was tempted to get my hands into her cunny that was finishing up its pee but knew that if we started, we’d be in the bathroom longer than discretion allowed. In fact, Jenny was tapping on the door, wondering what we were doing in there. We hardly ever close the door to the bathroom when we’re only going to pee.

Sarah and I finally did get away on our own by making up a shopping trip that we had to go on to get something we didn’t have for a meal we were cooking. After we picked up the item, I took her to the beach and we parked so that we could talk. I told her how sad I had been that she hadn’t returned to me after college. That I had missed her ever since and that just recently my thinking about her had become overwhelming. A terrible misunderstanding. She thought I hadn’t wanted to continue our relationship. She had had a girlfriend at college and then she met her husband and now it’s been fifteen years. We necked, touched, and caressed to sooth the wounds and promised to keep talking about this. Maybe we could get away together in a week or two.

It wasn’t planned but late Saturday night I had gotten up to spend a little quality time with my Internet sites because I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t stop thinking about Sarah or Nancy and Erin. I was really anxious that I hadn’t heard from Nancy yet. I threw my tee and panties on the floor and sat down and booted up the computer. I was just settling in on something that was making me moist between my legs when I heard someone stirring behind me. I was sure it was Jenny and I wasn’t going to pretend any more that I was doing anything other then diddling with myself now that she was doing it too. It turned out to be Sarah though. She came up behind me and cupped her hands on my breasts and then slid one hand down my arm until it was resting on top of my hand that was still pulling on my clit. She took control of it and I went limp and let her use my hand to masturbate me for a bit.

Still holding the hand, she lifted it and then me out of the chair and we went to the sofa nearby. She slid her nightgown off and she was naked. Sarah pulled me down on top of her and we caressed each other’s bodies and kissed. She told me she wasn’t ready yet to become lovers again. She had to sort out some of the feelings she was having first, but she made me promise that we could go away together. She held me tightly in her arms and legs and it felt so good to be there again. I wanted every inch of my skin to be touching hers. We were 8 and 11 again. We were 15 and 18 again. We could be together again, I just knew it.

We both heard someone else come into the room followed by “mommy, I couldn’t sleep,” coming from Jenny as she walked toward us. Sarah started to panic and get up. I pressed my body on hers so that she wouldn’t fly from the room and whispered to her that it would be fine, leave it to me.

I told Jenny that Sarah and I hadn’t been able to sleep either and that we were comforting one another. Did she want to join us and maybe we would all be able to get back to sleep. Naked she wanted to know and I said of course because it’s easier to give back rubs and front rubs when you’re naked. And rub other things she offered which got Sarah giggling. I shared with Sarah that Jenny and I had been talking about masturbating and how we do it to make us feel better and to relax. I got off of Sarah and we sat up and put Jenny, now stripped of her tee and panties between us and took turns rubbing her back and chest. As tempted as I was to let my hand go lower, I didn’t but Jenny did and slipped hers between her legs and squeezed her thighs together. Sarah sighed heavily seeing this and she reached over Jenny and put her hand on my shoulder. I leaned back over Jenny toward Sarah and met her mouth with mine.

I finally heard from Nancy on Sunday. Erin had insisted on one thing and another when she came to Nancy’s house to the point where they ended up nude and touching one another. It hadn’t gone any further but Erin wanted me to join them the next time we could all be together. Luckily I had ducked into the house for a snack while everyone else was at the pool because the scream I let out when I heard this would have had my family calling for an ambulance.