If she hollers, let her in

Angeli, is Belen so special that we need to really consider adding her and her daughter?

You will like her.

I’m sure that are many I might like. But there are plenty of us here already. What makes her special?

I think she is a real lesbian. Lewis, it would make Joy2x happy to have her own love.

No, I don’t think so. You say you trust Noime’s judgment. I want to ask the little one what she thinks. You may be too close to this person.

Like Joy2x says, ‘you’re the Boss.’

Thanks. So how long are you going to keep Ann going?

Relax! She will be OK. I know you love her and do not want to see her hurt. But she needs some hurt. It will be OK. But you are not being honest with yourself, Lewis.

What do you mean by that?

Are you trying to control what Ann decides? Or do you want her to be happy? I don’t think it can be both.

What are you talking about? She asked for time and I give her time. She asks for female lovers only and not me, I give her that. I even get her, her lovers! Why do you accused me of wanting to control her? Of course I want her to be happy.

Lewis, she is scared of failing you. She is scared that she can no longer ever be what you want and she is struggling with that. Noime is not trying to help Ann come back to you. She is trying to help Ann build up her intense desire to be with girls that she can never turn back. I think she will do it. I am helping her. Both of us think Ann needs to go. We think this, not to control you, and get rid of Ann. We do this because Ann needs to go and you need to let her go. Noime told you that. Right?

Yes she did. But it is complicated. Being married in the Philippines as you know means marriage is permanent.

Yes, but Ann is a ‘Dual,’¹ correct?

Yes, she is.

She likes the US?

Yes, sure.

You were married in the USA?

Yes.

How long have you had your Permanent Immigrant status?

Almost six years. Why?

How good is your Tagalog or Visayan?

I’m better with Tagalog, but I prefer English. Why Angeli?

You know you can be a Dual too?² You have lived here long enough, you are married to a Filipina, you probably have enough Tagalog.

Huh? OK, why do I want to do that?

Because Ann is going to go back to the States, divorce you and file to marry a girlfriend from the Philippines. It is possible now. But you need to be a citizen of the Philippines to own your land and home. If she divorces you, without you getting citizenship you lose the land and the house. You will, if you want later, get an annulment. You will have let Ann go. AND you must first become a citizen even if you do not think she will do this. Noime and I think she will find a new life in the USA. It would be hard for her to live here in the Philippines if she leaves you for a girl. I understand that life for lesbians is a lot better there than it is here. If you want, when Noime becomes 18, if she still wants you, you could marry her. No one will blame you! I bet she will want that. And me? Hehe, I am your forever mistress which Noime will always allow.

And what do you see happening to Joy2x?

Well, you think I am wrong about her, so we talk to Noime first, OK?

And Rez and Moon?

They will grow up and find boyfriends. Maybe you and Ann, who will always be your friend, will help them find guys from the US.

Well, I still don’t see that what you are doing is helping Ann in any way. I also don’t think Ann will like your plan. It’s an interesting idea, but I do not see it happening.

Do you not want to marry your ‘little one?’

Huh. I never considered the possibility and doubt she will want to marry me by the time she turns 18.

Hehe. If she doesn’t, I will!

Angeli, you are clearly someone to pay attention to. But all that is too far in time from now. ... Noime said that Ann wanted young girls, not ones who are older. How does she do that in the USA?

Same way you are doing it now. By finding a girl with a daughter she can also fuck by marrying the mother.

Like Belen?

Yes, Lewis. That was the real plan and I think that was in Ann’s head, even though she didn’t say it.

Jeezus, I am so stupid some times. OK and you really think Belen is lesbian?

Yes.

And you think Belen can transfer her love from you to Ann?

Yes.

And you think Ann would/could love Belen?

I was thinking she was for Joy2x. Joy2x likes little ones too. But yes and her daughter to, who I have been fucking for a year. She's got a great tongue beyond being a top student at school.

Circles within circles. OK, no sense playing a silly game with Belen. Invite her and her daughter over for Sunday night.

Opo, Sir Lewis. Good for you.

Maybe. I am not convinced Ann will ever want a divorce. In fact, I am pretty sure she does not. I will not push her to stay in this marriage, but I will be damned if I am going to force her out of it.

Oh Lewis, one of the nicest things about you is the trueness of your love for your wife, even now. It is impressive to me and to Joy2x. We don’t think men are normally like this.

The pandesal and mango still sit on the table uneaten. I can't say I am very hungry, but I take a bite of the mango. The sweet flavor seems to sooth my ragged emotions as it fills my mouth with the complex flavors contained within the single fruit. I take another bite and can almost feel my heart rate slow down. I slide my hand into the bag containing the pandesal. The rolls still contain their warmth from the bakery's oven. The dusting of powdery flour on my fingers as I remove one soothes me anew. There is no substantial substance to one of these rolls. They probably can be compressed in the hand into a little unappetizing ball of dough, but the light airy flavor of these little next to nothings is deceptively addictive. One, leads to a second and then a third. Mango, pandesal and coffee combine to help me find a center that my discussion with Angeli has loosened or at least shaken. There are too many moving parts in my life. Too many things in motion. Too many people with too many agendas. Add to that, as Angeli so clearly discloses to me, I really didn't understand my own agenda.

Going for a walk will not help. God forbid, I might meet someone new! I feel like that is the very last thing I need.

As I sit and ponder, my wife is getting pounded. Stripped of all essences except her most carnal nature. What does that do to a person? Will she blame me for not 'rescuing her?'

There is no one to talk with. Everyone has 'skin in the game.' (Another very bad pun.) I don't even notice the exact moment I finish the mango, or when I have emptied the bag of its little rolls. I only come back to reality when I realize my coffee cup needs a refill. Ruefully aware that I should not have eaten all those rolls, I get up, refill the cup and decide to commit this to writing. It is some form of confession even if I am denied absolution.

It takes a long time to record all of this. I am not a fast typist and need to consider each thing as it goes on to the screen. An hour passes without any interruption before I realize that Noime is standing there reading as I am writing.

Scroll back Uncle.

How far?

Not sure. I will let you know. Do it slowly. … Stop! There. OK wait a sec. … Ok down some more. … Stop!

Done, little one?

Yeh. Angeli is wrong about Joy2x.

Is she wrong about Tita?

Maybe. I think you are right. She will never leave this house. She will never divorce you. But if she does, I will marry you when I get old enough! Angeli is right that Tita needs her own wife and little GF. I do not know Belen or her daughter. But if she is a real lesbian, then maybe that will be good for Tita. We need to add more bedrooms to this house. Can we do that Uncle?

What do we do about Moon, Rez and Angeli?

They are for you Uncle! So is Joy2x. Joy2x never leaves you. I am sure of that.

Noime, what do you expect me to do with all you girls?

Hehe. Fuck us? Love us?

I do love you.

I know, and I think you love Joy2x too. But you will need to love the others too. They are yours now. ... Uncle, Gina told me something that is not important to us, but maybe you should know.

I do not need more problems. Please don’t tell me that this is a problem.

No, I do not think it is a problem. Gina says she is learning how older women look at other girls if they are ‘interested’ in them.

OK, and?

You know that the Principal’s wife is a teacher at Gina's school?

No, but I gather she is from your question.

Yes, she teaches 6^th grade section 4. She looks at Joy2x that way. She also looks at the girls in 8^th grade that way. Gina thinks she is a lesbian.

OK, maybe that is interesting, but what has that to do with us?

Gina is Principal’s GF, right?

Huh, Yes I guess so.

Gina says he likes to watch girls doing it.

So?

Gina wonders if he would like to see his wife doing it.

Do not, DO NOT, tell Gina to push this! Oh my God. Leave that alone, Noime.

OK, Uncle. I will tell her it’s a bad idea.

Holy shit. That would be a mess. Clearly Gina just wants to please her Principal, but there is nothing good that would come from that.

Noime, how long is this thing with Tita going to continue?

We will stop in a little and all shower. Then we will eat. After that I do not know. I think Tita can’t do much more.

OK. How did you get Moon to do this with you?

She told us that you talked to her about exploring of sexuality and I told her that Tita is exploring hers. Moon offered to help.

You like Moon?

Sure, she’s nice. She liked sex with you and she said you were good to her. She was frightened when she saw her mother. Was her mother really being fucked by a very big dog, Uncle?

Yes, a very big dog, little one.

Then it is good she is here. We will take care of her. ... Uncle, your desk is bigger than the desk of the Principal.

OK. I guess that is true.

Yes and you know what Gina does under that desk?

Yes…

Well, Uncle, move your chair out a little.

I do and Noime crawls under the desk, giggling as she proceeds. Ok Uncle, slide in a little bit. … Yep, that’s good.

My zipper is lowered and we find that I need to undo both the belt and button on the slacks for her to get access to my member. Noime says she will compare notes on that with Gina. Anyway, as I stare at the screen, Noime starts giving me head. I am enjoying all this when over the screen from the other side of the desk, I see Angeli with two others I think I remember from Gina's school. Angeli is introducing me, once again, I gather, to Belen and her daughter. Clearly Noime hears all this and chooses this moment to go into high gear. Belen is attractive, but no more so than anyone else in this house and she is a bit older than Angeli. The daughter is something else again. Angeli is reading my mind. She smiles and says, Belen is for girls only, but maybe this one you want, making a move on the girl, kissing her and playing with the thirteen-year-old's tits. Lifting up the daughter's top, exposing a breast sans bra, You want her, Lewis? Angeli rolls one of the girl's nipples between her fingers. The young one sighs, and starts playing with her own other nipple, as she grinds her hips in the air.

At that moment, Noime fingers my prostate with one finger, squeezes my balls with the other hand and deep-throats me all at the same time. I throw my head back and yell, Oh, shit! as I blow my load down her throat. Angeli freezes. And then from under the desk, now disengaged from the object of her attentions, comes a giggle and a gotcha!

I regain my composure and say, Nice to meet you both. I don’t supposed you will like to help clean me up down there, pointing to the area under my desk. That gets a laugh as I zip up and pull Noime up by the arm, her big shit eating grin in supreme evidence.

Angeli, I am surprised. I thought I had said Sunday to you. Why don’t we go to the Sala and you can discuss what has transpired. And Noime… that was… oh shit, I don’t know. Just don’t do that very often. OK?

She giggles a little more and indicates her assent.

Lewis, I heard what Noime said about how I was wrong and her idea about ending Ann’s thing soon. So I think, what if Belen goes in as the little ones leave and cares for Ann. Maybe it will make a connection that would never be able to be made in any other way.

Angeli, from Ann’s standpoint, it makes a great deal of sense. But what about you Belen? You love Angeli, do you not?

Angeli and I are good and close friends, but no I do not love her. Sir Lewis, I admit to being a bad person. I have been spying on you and Ann and your family here, ever since I learn Angeli will meet you first. Ann is very pretty. She is very attractive to me. I have listened to her voice. It is a sweet voice. I want to try with your wife, if you will let me. If you will let me, I will make her fall in love with me. This is what I want. Sir Lewis, please do not be hurt by this, because if you want to fuck me, I will let you, but I do not want you. I want Ann.

What does your daughter want?

Well, Sir Lewis, she is for you, not Ann. Is that a problem? I know you already have many and you tell Angeli, no more.

Carolyn, I am not sure this is what you want. So I will ask you to come out to the terrace with me so no one else can hear us, and we can talk in private. OK?

Yes, Sir.

The terrace is on the other side of the wall, right outside the Sala. But there is an air conditioner running at a pretty good clip that sticks out the window just ourside that makes enough noise so that no one inside will hear us

Carolyn, you are incredibly lovely and I am not a fool. I suspect I could love you easily. But what do you want? Whatever your mother wants for herself, she can have without your participation in any way. Do you have a boyfriend now?

No, Sir.

Would you like a boyfriend closer to your age who you could marry when you get older?

Sir, maybe if I marry, he gives me a baby and then leaves me alone with child and poor. I have lived poor with mother all my life. You are handsome and this is a nice house. If you can love me, this is where I will be. I know you will not marry me. But if you give me a baby you will not leave me. That what Angeli tells me about you.

Did Angeli tell your mother that Ann needs a real lesbian lover?

Yes, Sir.

You have been making love with Angeli. Correct?

Yes, Sir. I am sorry.

There is nothing to be sorry about. I ask because maybe you prefer to be with girls and not boys, just like your mother. You can live here and be with only a girl. Would you prefer that?

No! No! I am with Angeli only because I do not want to get pregnant and then be left alone!

Well, all I can tell is you must be as crazy as all the other females in this house. But if your mother and my wife fall in love, then you stay with me. OK?

What if they don’t?

You want to leave your mother’s house if she doesn’t stay here?

Yes!

Damn, OK we will see how it works out. Maybe you will stay. Do you think I will learn to love you Carolyn?

I hope so, Sir. I will try my best.

You can go inside. Please ask Angeli to come out.

Yes, Sir.

All this is happening too fast. Way too fast. I feel confused and dizzy as I sit alone on the terrace. Eventually Angeli does appear.

You angry with me Lewis?

Why are they here now?

I call them and say 'come tomorrow,' but Belen she say why not now? I say best tomorrow. But she say they coming anyway. I think she just excited. I am sorry.

It's OK. I understand.

When we walk back in, Belen is nowhere in sight, but Gina, Noime, Rez and Moon are. Clearly, that means that Ann is with Belen now. Also clearly, the only introductions to be made are of Noime and Carolyn. That being done, Noime asks me if they can use my bedroom. I agree to that, but ask Moon to stay back a bit. The others disappear behind my bedroom door. The smell of a meal cooking in the dirty kitchen gives evidence of Angeli's ’s current location. I sit down with Moon.

Sweetheart, I am sorry that you got involved with all that and Ann today. That was unfair to be done to you.

Oh, it was OK. Noime explained why Ann is so confused. I know nothing can be done for my mother, but if I can help your wife, I want to do that. Sir… Noime said something and Gina and Rez both said it is true. She say that we are your true wives now. That Ann is and will always be a lesbian now. They say that she needs help to understand that, because it is making her miserable now. She wants to be your real wife, but cannot do it anymore. So she is crying a lot. Is that true?

I am afraid that it is probably true. Only time will tell for sure if Ann is a 100% lesbian. I do not know. It is true that Noime thinks of herself as my wife. I do not know how Rez and you will think about me. I suspect you will want to find boys your own age. You are not required to be mine.

Is it true that Teacher is a lesbian but will never leave you?

That is what she says. Never is a very long time. I have no way to know what will happen in the future.

Sir, is it true that Angeli is also your mistress.

I laugh. That is what she tells me.

So if I tell you I will be a wife too, that is OK?

Well, what if I help you find a good husband?

No.

What do you mean ‘No?’ You want to find your own?

No. I mean, I will be your wife and live here with my girlfriends. I like that better.

Moon…

Sir? Just one promise please.

And what is that?

Please do not bring any dogs into the house!

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Chapter 17